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because i kept telling myself this today. no matter what, i must continue with what i've been holding on for so long. i need to wisen up.

everything went smoothly, screwed up a little but nonetheless, it was a happy and smooth shoot today. my nails are black so is my real madrid jersey. beethovan talked to me today so i am a happy girl tonight. i really like this crew. we called it the happy, relax and friendly crew. i like it, so keep it coming. major shoots are almost over so i guess everything gonna be real fine soon. it almost 2am, call time is 9am. i need to sleep now. goodnight people. i hope everything is going fine for everyone else too.

Container yard shoot today. "Si buay shag ah!" Thank goodness Jacky came down to help out (I'm blogging in the toilet while shitting, nothing new, and my phone is ringing in my room). Anyway, shoot was good today, quote Matt "Goodjob today guys". I like that. No one tio kan which means? GOODJOB. Weeeee. Plus today they ordered KFC for dinner. YAY. had popcorn chicken. Tomorrow is a long day again. Ngahhhhh~ I want eat kway chup later! I is going to shower now and then Ikea to purchase some props for tomorrow with Jacky and supper. I is not hungry but I is not full and I is freaking tired and I is miss you because you didn't sms me today like you used to. But nonetheless, I had fun today and I got sunburned. OKAY GTG I THINK IT'S JACKY WHO CALLED. Photos up soon.

i feel no love )):
anyway, i think i'm going back to pa after this feature.
and i hope ming shun will still be looking for a pa then.
i can't wait for this feature to end, seriously.

it's shoot day 1 today and my legs are now totally jellified.
climbed up and down the 12 story flat for at least 20 times.
i think i can be a better PA. but i love art though it's damn tiring.
guess that the only consolation is that i spoke to kelvin tong today and chatted with christopher lee. both are nice people.
held a total of 3 pigeons today and i'm absolutely scared of them, still.
and because of work, i missed two dinner dates today. blah.
okay, shall shower now and go to sleep straight away ((:

so this is what we've being doing for the past 2 days.
very tiring.
and i dirtied my otto tee today )):

was off work early today. supposedly decided to head home, why so?

1) rendy drove me to mrt station but we went the wrong way so instead of jurong east mrt, we went to bukit batok mrt station.

2) took a train to jurong east mrt, and from there, took a green line. finally at outram station, i managed to get myself a seat. BUT GUESS WHAT? "dear passengers, the train going towards pasir ris/simei is terminating at this station. knn. so everyone got up and headed out.

3) called sheena to complain to her about my bad day and then the next train came and everyone board so i thought "hey, it's back to normal now so i shall take the next train home." and then guess what, the very next train is terminating at that very station too.

so, decided to head to hougang to meet sheena for dinner. wanted to call wenchong and larry but i thought they might be out on sunday to celebrate papas' day. so yes, had dinner with sheena.

4) wanted to text wenchong and larry to see if they are near but decided not to because i was too tired. when i finished my shower, i've got 2 missed calls from larry. guess where were they? HOUGANG. and they were there the same time as me. what the hell.

so anyway, that pretty much sums up my very unlucky sunday. and it's 22nd tomorrow which means, the true hell is here. god save me.

annnd, i met kelvin tong today! but i was too stone to say hi. and i saw kat as well who apparently is quite well known and she was like "hi fiona, im kat." and guess what did i replied? "oh hello!" i forgot to shake hands with her because i was damn stone. okay fml.

i am going to be late for work. cynthia is still in the toilet and i can't shower now. damn.

sentence of yesterday:
"your working attitude quite good eh"
HURHUR.

today, maybe just today, i felt like giving up. maybe it's really not my kind of thing, maybe i'm really not good in anything in particular except for sleeping. but it's really what i wanted to do, something which kept me going, sort of a goal; an ambition.

i used to want to be an editor but i do not have an eye for editing as yoke ee would have put it. i am not that kind who sit in the office whole day in front of the computer. and the first time i got involved in art dept, i told myself, "i've found it. it's a perfect job for me."

but maybe, today, i felt that maybe, this is not my forte. but i'm still learning and i'm still willing to keep on learning. i look up to a ton of art directors, locally and internationally. and i have people who i can turn to to learn from. art dept is all about brain and creativity, that is something no one can learn, you're born with it.

so, i'll be more hard working from tomorrow onwards, i will open my eyes to see more, learn more. open my ears to listen more. sleep more so that my mind will be fresh.

i think i can do it, because i am fiona.

"when you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

conversation of the yesterday.

me: eh yj, go ask matt need to work on saturday not leh.
yj: why me, you should ask, *mumble mumble* if not i going to use your name.
me: eh matt, yj ask you are we working on saturday?
matt: workkk. workkk. of course working. why leh?
me: yj wants to go out with his friends.
matt: hahaha *looks at yj* those who ask, sure need to work. no la. seriously need to work.
yj: you want to meet your bf right?
me: now you can't meet your bf too.
yj: my bf in camp.
me: OMG. ask him he got bend down pick up soap anot.
matt: why soap.
me: bend down poke backside.
matt: good what. got lubricant. if not very pain.
me: OH MY MOTHER.

when i said no, i never meant away.
there, i blew it away. hurhur.

okay whatever. i just got woke up by jacky's father.
and now i need to go wash up and get ready to be out in 1/2 hour.
HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?! damn it.

for once, i didn't know what to reply.

weather's kinda alright today, not so hot.
sheenakbinswinechiang is back today.
i am looking forward to meet her but i've got no fucking time.
jacky's coming back on friday, yay.

went for dinner with larryking, hornywenchong and joeypeng at geylang.
home after that. fucking shag.

need to do some more work later before i can go to sleep.
))))):
i am so damn sleepy now.
okay. shall go shower now, read some FML then do some work, read a little of storybook and SLEEP.

so, as i was saying, the weather was fuck up and indeed it was still pretty much fucked up even now, 2.41am. this moment it's hot, next it's freaking windy. the world is coming to an ice age all over again. and this will escalate as soon as n.korea throw in their nuclear bomb. oh well, who am i to comment about the world's politics.

and so, went home for dinner after work because sis-in-law cooked tom yam sop so how i miss it?! met wenchong after that and picked larry from the airport. okay not exactly because both of us were late and thank god melvin was already there. so yes, larry was craving for barchormee so we went 85 for it. had durian too and yes, it was shiok. and i don't know what's wrong but wenchong is totally horny tonight. i guess he went home to jerk it off just now. and i guess so did larry.

anyway, larry is back and that means steamboat! yay!

it's work again in 8 hours time. pretty much to do later on. hopefully i can survive the sun this time round.

and i'm talking to foo ce kai now. i totally miss those gossiping sessions and mindless slacking days at the pondok )): and those random parties. dang.

alright, it's FML time and then i shall hit the sack!

OH AND SHEENA CHIANG IS COMING BACK TONIGHT! HOW AWESOME!?

IS FUCKING HOT.
i swear the sun is out to kill.
i seriously hate walking in the sun.
i need to get my car license soon,
so i dont need to walk in the sun.
i like taking buses which is fucking cold,
because the weather out there gives me headache.
FUCK THE WEATHER.

Recruit Chan messaged me last night. He is actually ENJOYING himself so it's a good thing! Told him to reserve the hotter guys for me he said "all botak, all the same, nothing to see". LOL. I MISS FIRST FRIEND!

Anyway, it's period day 2 and it's hurting like fuck. Days like this, I will choose to stay home and lay on my bed all day long till day 3 approach BUT, I is need to work today so no laying on my bed all day long this time round.

And the next best thing is, LARRYKINGONGCHINLUK is back tomorrow! Not that I am going to pick him up with Melvin or seeing him soon either, but at least, my left breast is back!

SHEENAKBINCHIANGYANPIN is coming back tomorrow as well. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO MY PRESENTS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I missmissmissmissmiss her la!

I haven't had my route (for work) planned. And I am now very stress out about talking to Robin later. Damn. Simple stuff like that I THINK I can handle la. GO GO Fiona! People are asking why I go work don't need go office, like damn shiok, anyhow walk around, go shopping is working. HELLO YOU TRY WALKING FOR HOURS. Okay basically I'm out walking around, sourcing for props. And I need to update my bosses with results meaning, I AM WORKING. Okay this is getting nowhere.

It's 11.49am. I should get going now! Bye people.

this is the first time, after so long, i'm working on a sunday.

4 months is passing by so slowly )):
& sorry d, he's probably the reason why we can't.

that was last last week, 2 days before mark's enlistment. it was about 3+ in the morning and i was really, really sleepy and when i'm sleepy, i look more like shit. so it's been a week since mark enlisted, wonder how is things going for him. can't wait to see his botak head.













and then just two days ago, it was jacen's turn. had prata, went ghost hunting 2 days before he enlist. and one day before he egot nlisted, met him in school for less than 20minutes. but he sent me an sms before he left for tekong and it was sweet. i am definitely looking forward to see his botak head too!



and that is the polaroid taken at six6. another one is with him. mehmeh, take care first friend!

rino, syafiq, hakim, shahul have all been enlisted. they are all going to become true men soon! and the weather is killer hot recently so i hope all of them hydrate themselves properly everyday.

anyway, next week gonna be the killer week. hopefully we can start on our set dressing next week. we're running out of time! damn. working over this weekend ): it's daddy's day tomorrow.

oh anyway, my nail is chipping and it's damn painful. the nail clipper is downstairs and i am lazy to get it. i don't like.

and conversation OF THE DAY,

me: yes you called?
swc: ya. where are you?
me: home. why?
swc: i thought you quarantine?
me: ya. came home today.
swc: (i forgot what he said but something like thank god im still alive or something)
me: haha. lame la. i nv got quarantine la. i bluff you.
swc: YOU LITTLE FUCKER!

haha i swear his reaction over the phone was damn funny. "you little fucker. you little fucker"

alright. that's all for now.

i'm sorry D, but my heart's with M.

Like my post title, I'm ftired and it's only Wednesday. Now, I really do need some sleep.

On the other hand, spent a nua and restless night as a farewell for Jacen and Weixiang. I like WX's current hair style. Man, I think I am going to miss Jacen a lot. Oh well. I don't think I can get my Thusday off to send him off )):

Pictures another day.

that fucker is going tokyo in a few hours time. goodbye my friend, have fun!

i am going to kill ongyijie the next time i see him because he fucking went missing again. i just talked to him before i went to bathe and when i called him again after i'm done, he went missing. omg i think he is in another dimension or something. wtf. i am still going to kill him.

THIS ENTRY IS FOR EDISON(STUPID)SEAHWENCHONG



i guess i just hanged out too much with the iad people. hey that reminds me of larryongchinluk!

It was a really happy occasion 'cept for the fact that we worked like fuck and I suffered from gastric. It was mad pain but seeing april so pretty and boi so handsome, it was all worth it. and tengshan very nice, bought us pepsi and chicken rice! and I like talking to steiner because he is so funny and right, he's the most relax art director no wonder i like working for him. haha. slack people rocks. first time making ribbon flowers and haha felt shiok because i learnt something new.

table 29 was the days talents with yj and i. the whole table was pretty stone. and highlight of the day, HAVE YOU SMOKE IN TRIANGULAR GARDENS OF TP BEFORE?! haha. it was an awesome site seeing every single one of the smokers smoking openly at there really. another highlight of the day was polaroid taking! we took so man we filled up the a1 size frame and we had many left overs with no place to stick on. we took some home and there were some more "bullets' not used. omg. imagine how many packs of polaroid everyone took.

and as usual, beng huat was making a scene after he drank. nb and i was one of the first few who kenna. ccb.

it's work tmr )): managed to pull yj in for art dept and creating a network for wx. i feel good helping my friends ((:

jacen and wx is going ns. dang. i am going to miss them because we all missed mark just now. damn.

alright. shower & sleep. i seriously need some sleep. hurhur!

i am searching for the courage within me to love again.
after what happened in 2008, i think i've lost every single bit of courage to love.

anyway, in a few hours time, we are all going to witness april and boi tying the knot. i'm very happy and excited for them ((:

i felt like a bloody slacker. 24hrs/day is simply not enough now. thank god jacky was there to help me a bit, and advice me a bit. i am sure i am going to wisen up after this featured.

CONGRATULATIONS TO YUMI PONG FOR HER IMMEDIATE ADMISSION TO RMIT MELBOURNE!

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji