i had gastric last night and it lasted till this morning. i can't sleep and waited for the clinic downstairs to open. tommy went with me and i came home, sleep for 3 hours, fart like nobody's business and woke up. the guys ended the meeting already and i got nothing to do. eileen is still sleeping so i am going to meet darryl in school because we got nothing to do. we need to get a life. lala is not in school and wc is having driving later. bleah. i am thinking, yj and i have the most complicated yet awesome friendship. we had two major quarrels and both lasted for months but we are friends still. haha. okay. just some random thought. it's 3 now and i haven't bathe. i am meeting darryl at 3.30pm. haha good game. i am going to shower now. BYES.

i am having my daily dose of FML;

Today, an ant bit my penis. That was the first 'mouth' to ever touch it.

Today, I was sitting in class and I fell asleep during the lesson. I was wearing sweatpants and had an erection. My teacher came up to me and grabbed my penis. She thought it was my phone. FML

Today, I heard my sister masturbating in her room. I took the dog around the block to get out of the house, and I came back to see her leaving her room... my electric toothbrush in her hand. FML

Today, I was having sex with my boyfriend. When he was about to orgasm, he screamed "Yes Brittany!" at the top of his lungs. My name's not Brittany. That's his sister. FML

Today, I took the bus to work and a sweet old lady got on after me and sat next to me. Halfway to work, she fell asleep and her head was on my shoulder. Trying to be nice, I gently tried to wake her up before my stop came. She wasn't sleeping. I let a dead woman lie on me for 30 minutes. FML

Today, I had the good fortune of finding a seat on the bus, not the norm in Peru. Several minutes after sitting down, I felt something on my shoulder. Thinking it was a hand, I turned my head to look. I came face to face with a dirty man's crotch, it was his erection resting on my shoulder. FML

sushi-ed today with wc, lala and donson. it was good. we had at least 10 plates of salmon sushi. fwalala. lala's face is extremely ugly today because of the peeling skin. shitted at tampines one and i swear the toilet smells damn nice. accompanied lala for site analysis which took less than 1/2 hour, that slacker. saw ah ken and had a small chat with him about job and the industry 8D totally missed chatting with him during internship days. lala and joey accompanied me to wait for pops. it's bammy's 11th birthday today so we decided to visit singapore flyer. it was boring )): candice called me about a job coming up at boku. yessah! so now i am unofficially hired (i guess so)?

i am going to shower now and hopefully get an early rest tonight ((:

I HAVE YET TO RESHOOT FOR MY SYOG VIDEO AND IT'S DUE NEXT WEEK. CCB. I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT TILL YUMI REMINDED ME OF IT. AND I NEED TO START PREPPING FOR THE MTV SHOOT. THE GUYS ARE INVOLVED IN <60 SHOOT AND OMG. EVERYONE IS VERY BUSY YET NOT BUSY. TELL ME I AM NOT GOING TO DIE.

meeting nelson tmr at 12.30pm at town for discussion. i doubt i can wake up but i need to wake up. i am losing the momentum for production alr.

the guys have all gotten their enlistment letter. like what oyj said, "it's agonizing to see the guys entering ns one by one".

okay. it's 2.22pm now i need to go shower if not i'll be late. and that larry called me at 1.54pm asking where am i. i jumped out of the bed, i thought i was late (whoa, that rhymes). in the end, it was just a random call. LOL.

woke up at 4.44pm today, reached town at 7pm, had my first meal of the day, left starbucks at 10pm, got onto 518 at 10.36pm, reached home at 11.30pm and it's 2.33am now.

i felt sorry. i am sorry. i was a bad friend. blah. i am a bad friend.

i hope sushi buffet and singapore flyer later on in the day will make me feel better ):

some things are better left unsaid.

oyj's belated birthday parteh at his place was simple and nice. the journey there was !@#$%^&* but thank god i had company from outram onwards. need for speed ftw seriously. i'll never get bored of the game. and i still think that lala looks better with his current tan. wc is retardedly shy. i secretly think that crys is hot. roadtrip at night is freaking awesome unless you're the driver. thank you mark for the cap. the guys fifa-ed for 4hours, madness. and sanroye is looking for a gf. oyj's cake was HAHA, look out for hajar's video soon. mini catch-up session was yayness. wc's hoodie is with me, thank god he left it at oyj's because it came to great use while going home. everyone need to thank weihon SERIOUSLY. lala said it's sushi buffet day again on tues! wah. exciting leh, sushi again, i like.

something is bothering me. i treasure this friendship but, idk. sigh.

oh my mother, what mess have i gotten myself into recently?

sentosa was pretty awesome. wc, lala, weiming and i were the first group to reach palawan. mass game lasted less than 15mins but everyone had fun. sun was scorching hot but nonetheless, it was a sunny yellow banana day. bathed in guys toilet with lala shitting in the next cubicle. i got 4 tones on my left arm now. according to larry, it's chocolate, caramel, vanilla and strawberry. the worse tan i ever had in my life la, nb. but my bananaboat aloe vera gel saved the day of mine, lala, wc and sarah ((: dinner was at open plaza, watching that swinging man swing front and back. talked a little and cheryl and i think that our saturday night is so boring.

we were supposed to go shisha with eileen, jared, aris, jk and banghur but the both of us were too tired. then we wanted to join the rest for a mini bbq at josh's but we were too tired so we skipped that as well. so in the end, we all went home.

anyway, all in all, i guess yesterday was nice. managed to clear things up with amos and izak and i guess that's something worth being happy for. but another problem is surfacing which i don't wish to comment much. i hope that friend of mine would stop pushing the blame to another friend and stop complaining to all his new-found-friend about this whole thing. HURHUR.

p/s GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR NEW FOUND FRIEND DUDE.

and i realised i've done too much for a friend. i should stop doing anything.
now i finally understand what the others said about you; selfish.
i am saddened by that fact that i have to see it for myself today.

and yes, i am such a disappointment today too.
karma? i think so.

you have no idea how those words hurt me.

HAHAHA. HAPPENING LEH FIONA.

im not feeling good tonight but i wonder why.

i was supposed to go watch eileen and gang shisha but guess what? i'm stuck at home with a bad stomach )):

i decided to confess my feelings.

"It hurts me alot inside everytime I think of how Fiona, Jacen, Weixiang, Mark, Yijie are all graduating. They were my first few seniors, the ones who made me open up to the school, feel familiar about all the things around me. Now they are all leaving I can't help but feel a little lost. Who am I gonna turn to when I face troubles, who can I face to rant on my problems and be sure the secrets will stay with them. You know they always never fail to stop by and listen to you no matter how busy they are. They taught me how to survive in TDS, how to face certain lecturers and so much more you can never imagine.
When I was debriefing my own freshies just 2 days back and even during the entire camp, I kept having flashbacks of myself being a freshie listening to Jacen and Fiona and other GLs giving their debriefs, confessing to us about so many things which I myself was confessing to my own freshies. It was almost like deja vu. Just one year back, I was sitting in a freshie shoe, clueless about everything around me, blur like a sotong, dressing like a country pumpkin, shooting my mouth off at the wrong time but now, all in me was filled with precious teachings and priceless knowledge, only but our dear seniors would unconditionally pass it on.
I know it is pointless to hang onto the past. Everyone has to move on, it is time for us to stop relying on all of you and free you of the heavy responsibilities. Go ahead and enjoy the life out there waiting for you guys and achieve the best. But don't forget to visit us in school, you know we will be there. Drop by for lunch or something ok, I know you'll miss design canteen.
I promise, I would live on the legacy like how you guys have influenced me and bring the best to my freshies whenever possible.

From the bottom of my heart, I thank all of you."


ripped from jiahui's. i just read it and emotions just overwhelmed me.

every time when someone talked to me regarding how zai jiahui/eric is, i will have this proud and happy feeling within me. i think it's the same feeling as a parent whose kid had won some awards. and i seriously think they are two damn awesome people and the only two juniors in design that i'm sincerely happy to have known.

to eric and jiahui, both of you know how much i love you and how proud i am to have known you guys. it's a pitty i only got to work with both of you once but that was a very nice and happy experience. i hope that both of you will strive hard for everything; for yourself, for the school. d list for the win, main com for the win ^^

whatever i'd done, is not for nothing.

everything is about you, you and yourself all the time, it gets irritating after a while.

i hate whatever that happened today.

sometimes i really find it irritating and annoying.
i've tried so hard just to make someone's life easier/better/happier.
but that person is going all out to make his/her own life worse.
tell me what else can i do to make this friend's life happier.

win not for glory but for honor.

genesis "eh, eh eh eh engine power, design better"
pondok like mad machiam party bodoh
sushi buffet with lala mao kk joey kx
tampines 1
tampines mall open plaza with kk lala
stage with WAKAO gossipboys
cpf gossipboys session 1 round 2
ended the day at 12.30am after 3plus hours of non-stop gossip session
it was awesome.

camp has ended officially after 8 hours of post motem and debrief.
supper was at simpang with 1/3 of main com.

i guess, what i will miss most is those "after camp hours" nights.
amphitheater, staircase 70, dungeon, entrance and 3/10.
3am supper opposite, 4am at dungeon, gossiping with the graduates and stressing ourselves with how much we want design to win and a lot more.

the camp was totally all enjoyable but it was still pretty much fun all thanks to the fellow graduates, some of the main com and of course my awesome ANGKO GLs.

whatever it is, whether we deserve it or not, DESIGN IS YET AGAIN, THE BEST SPIRITED SCHOOL THIS TIME ROUND! and we won 2nd for girls boat (freshies), 2nd for guys boat (freshies), 2 for girls boat (seniors) and 4th for guys boat (seniors). I would say it's not about winning the medal or not but it's about pawning the other schools at the boat-house. we were cheering till we could feel out veins bursting. & we've shed enough tears after the result was announced. i feel pretty wasted for our cheerleaders. we should have won. dammit.

everything has ended and i would not have another DOC as an official. it's pretty saddening to say this, but i'm glad the camp is o-v-e-r.

happy birthday guoxiang! i didn't know we shared the same birthday and although he asked me to keep it as a secret, hahaha, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

josh called at 3+am. because it's 12am over at his side and sang me a birthday song. so sweet. but he won't be back in town AGAIN )):

anyway, it's chalet later on. i am so tired. now i wonder why i booked a chalet in the first place. LOL.

alright. grandma nagging me to go down. ciaos.

melvintan and larryong were so sweet. they called at 12am sharp and sang me a birthday song together. albeit them singing out of tune, i was quite touched. thank you everyone who texted me, wrote on my fb wall and instant messaging me on msn.

eric and jiahui are making otto tradition cookie for me later. AHHHH!

anyway, i am now 21 years old. shiok or what. i felt old instantly.

it's down to 1 last day to my last doc, our last doc. it's a pretty emo thing for mark, yj and i. mark said he is going to cry with me on the last day. and that's pretty what i'm looking forward to because i've never seen him cry for the past 3 years spent in design with him. and i'll make sure jacen cry with us too, as well as the rest of the year 3.

and i'm turning 21 tomorrow but i am not excited about it. haha.

hello world. the weather today is damn shiok to sleep in and so, i slept the whole day, practically. it's down to 2 days to my last DOC. have i ever mention that i hate separation? and yes, i really hate separation.

there are so many things that i am going to miss after camp. putting my course mates aside, i am definitely going to miss my Angko GLs as well as Camp X Main Comm.

i am having this lump in my throat now and well, emo time i guess. i can't accept the fact that it's my last DOC.

i am not in my best state yesterday and today.
baby is having fever again and i am very worried.

i went for dragonboat's practice row today. and the sun wasn't freaking strong but I GOT BURNT.
tmd. so much for laughing at melvin. and my whole body feels freaking hot like seriously. like i'm on fire or something and they are red like char siew. i am very sian because i can't sleep because it's so painful. BUT THANK GOD FOR BANANABOAT ALOE VERA GEL. weeeeeeee. i didn't want to use it because it was a present from someone dear to me but my nivea after sun spray was with melvin so I HAD NO CHOICE but to use my bananaboat.

anyway, i bumped into eddie yesterday at army market. and he asked if i'm still interested in doing camps. i mean, i am but i am not sure about it myself. and he asked me "how come the whole lot of you went missing together?" i really didn't know how to explain to him at that point. he asked me to call him but i didn't. instead, i sent him a 4 pages long sms. i hope he get the point. but i dont mind doing camps for him since they are not with shai now. and i really like glen's camp style. i miss doing outdoor camp actually. i miss going out in the sun and feeling healthy. but oh well, i shall go find a stable job first.

talking about stable job, jac was very nice to help me pull strings with leon tong (kelvin tong's brother). but i am not sure about it myself. like idk if i'm good enough to join bokofilms or not. sighs. i shall do it on friday since it's PH. oh well.

results are out. i got big fat b for my fyp. THAT MARKS THE END OF MY TP ACADEMIC!

and it's gl refresh tomorrow. i hope all will be good!

school, army market, hajilane, home.
finally had a no-meeting day. but it's back to meeting AGAIN tomorrow!
GOD SAVE ME PLEASE.
anyway, had a great time today ((:

i am fucking sleepy now but i am waiting for my hair to dry by itself.

anyway, camp is like 5 days away. i am very excited and anxious at the same time. like what larry told me today, we've planned this for 270 days just for that 4 days.

i really hope all the best thing will happen to my last camp, our last camp. we need to win those trophies back, badly. we need to leave this school with an impact.

alright. i need to sleep now, like right now!

i was talking to linda just now in the afternoon about traveling. cus she wants to bring momsie and pops to beijing and asked if i'm interested. i told her why don't we go eygpt? and guess what? SHE IS GOING NEXT TUESDAY! FOR 10 DAYS. and the best part was she asked me to join her but i've got camp! damn it. i've always wanted to visit eygpt. eversince young )):

anyway,

this entertained me for quite some time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMSIE!

YAY. EVERYONE PASSED TODAY SO WE ARE ALL NOW QUALIFIED FIRST AIDER!

Anyway, was like supposed to have subway today but because of that larryong, we had to change plan and thus, had our brunch at Ikea instead.

So here comes the life frightening story. We went over to A1 to get bubble tea because this troublesome guy wanted to taste the almighty recommended "secret recipe" bubble tea. And as soon as we stepped out in the sun, it started raining suddenly. The we bought the bubble tea and got into a cab because seahwenchong was already in the bus on his way to Ikea. Then on the expressway towards Ikea, THE RAIN SUDDENLY OUT OF NOWHERE CAME CRASHING DOWN. I mean, it was so bad till we can't see anything ahead of us.

THEN THE UNCLE NEARLY BANGED INTO THE TRUCK INFRONT OF US!! (Okay this is the scary part. Here comes the funny part). Because I wasn't looking front, so I didn't see what was happening. Then suddenly Larry was like "EH NEHNEH HOLD THE DOOR." Wha lao eh. You nearly bang into a truck, you ask me hold the door for what?? LOL. So I started laughing at him.

Then nevermind, we were talking. Then suddenly he looked at me, (omg. i am starting to laugh now) and he spasm at the most ugly way. I mean, really ugly. Like only half of his face was twitching from the spasm. I swear that sight can keep me entertain for two whole days.

So anyway, Ikea with larryong and seahwenchong was filled with food. We had 39bucks worth of food. And that two very childish boys kept me entertained for that couple of hours.

Came home, showered and fall asleep while waiting for Cynthia. Went to get birthday cake for mummy in the evening and OMG HAD A DAMN FULL DINNER. I skipped the crabs because my stomach was already exploding. I am very sleepy now but I am too full to sleep.

Hello all FO people, please rest well today and chiong for monday-wednesday okay.

OKAY SUNDAY SHALL BE MY SPEND-SOME-TIME-WITH-THE-CREATURES-DAY!

"are you and melvin together?"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. OMG. I CAN TOTALLY DIE LAUGHING AT THAT QUESTION.

anyway, i have yet to start to revise for my first aid test for later. die.
i think failing rate will be high tomorrow. die.
i need to wake up in 4 hours time. die.

but the thought of having subway for lunch tomorrow keeps me going. i am craving for some tuna now.

i love watching the clouds float pass the sky and cool breeze on my face.
i love counting the stars on the sky in the middle of the night.

that stupid melvin tan woke me up from sleep just to ask me a question he asked me last night. grrr. i angry ah.

i am going to send orientation package later! weeeee. i can't wait. there's this very hot name in my pile and i hope he's as hot as i imagine him to be.

anyway, i wish everything will turn out well later. fingers cross.

jeng jeng jeng.
i think i am dead this time.
how how how?

i am really very tired now.

yesterday, vet, medic course, main com post-motem, chalet
today (continued chalet), talked to the proggers, regatta training, meeting with the year 3, HOME FINALLY.

and i was drunk last night. happy, loud drunkard.

anyway, talking to the proggers was good. caline said it worked. so i guess we're working in the right direction now? i seriously hope so. fa meeting, medic course, main com meeting, meeting with prog heads, gl refresh & meeting with the exco. so many meetings, so little time. it's days like this that i wish for 48hours a day. i still can't find a way to cater to everyone. i still can't find a way to make things sounds pleasing to everyone. sighs.

shihui told me today she heard from people that i offended a lot of people outside. haha. i would like to know who i've offended. LOL.

from warren's blog,
"it takes one to know whats bad to know whats good. works both ways."

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji