Subaru Loo msged me. hurhur

I miss doing camps. I miss the pre camp. Unloading Abang Snail, moving it from the car park to tent, setting up of water point and medic area, do the pags, midnight mac supper, sleep in the bloody cold wind, wake up to welcome campers, energizers, campfire, cheer non stop, traditional glenn emo shit, cheers, and cheers and cheers and ya, the tradition glenn 3 hours debrief. LOL. Seeing them smiling, crying, cheering and the i-don't-want-to-go-home on the last day is unforgettable. i miss my cv campers.



it's like a once in a life time experience. i want to go back but there's too much under lying circumstances for most of us to even go back to where we came from.

i miss the red shirt. or maybe the green and the orange one. or maybe the black and white one that i always wanted to wear. LOL. yes. secretly i want to. HAHA







and yes, this time last yr,



i'll see this quite often.

friday would be a short camp. 2d1n. but no 3 hours debrief, no bathing in public toilets, no campfires, no cute young boys to look at. HUR.

ok. i shall stop emo.

i nv go run again today. tmd

Finally I came home in the afternoon. Have been spending my afternoons for the past don't know how many months in school. Somehow I miss school now. Weird.

Moshy screeched at me today. Damn sad.

Jason Feng is the sex. I got my Gossip Girls Season 1 and 2 from him today! But I is got no time to watch.

Video Journal Screening this Friday. Yayness. I only watched the front part of Huizhen group's.

YUMI WENT ORCHARD YTD NEVER CALL ME! I KEEEAL YOU.

still deciding whether to move to wordpress or not. hmm.

when you bring your school down, you bring yourself down. so i shall not complain to everyone about the school. but i still hope i can loan the new boom mic out because it's damn handy and portable.

refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining, refrain from complaining.

yes i shall refrain from complaining.

i shall spend some moment in time in 8th floor lib tomorrow. interested party with nothing better to do can join me because i think i'll fall asleep there. i want to build up my portfolio now and worry lesser for my fyp because sip comes before fyp.

build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio. build portfolio.

all big big small small production must be listed. regardless if it's only PA or boom operator.

did i mention i dropped my baby on the floor twice during last sunday's production/shoot/filming?



heart pain luh.

and did i mention i went to ava to visit the two monster? axel bloody scratch me on my thighs luh. like fucking big and tall and heavy. shit. i am so not going back home when brother is not.


baby


mojo


stalion


axel





this cute little golden retriver puppy is damn cute. she's like very obedient and ya, very cute.
oh well, belong to someone else. LOL.

in the end, i will have two vid pro modules this block.
how "lucky" of me to have lecturers bringing my name up during their staff meetings.
i hope there'll be vacant edit suites tomorrow so i can edit the defa thingy.
doc main com meeting on thurs, film lang video journal screening on fri, dotc on fri and sat, spring cleaning on sun. yayness. no rest again. tmd.
it seems that alot people are not quite happy with the doc sub com results. and they spelled siow hansheng as siaw. bahhs.
i need more random conversation.
meimei showed me the doomsday video. lets all die on 21st dec 2012. i'm quite excited about it. as in, will it be that accurate?
i want to fly to pluto. but now, mercury sound more fun.
crappy crappy shit. heh. welcome to the loner club fiona. yay!

i think pro tools audio library came from them.



melvin just showed this to me. damn cool.

defa shoot yesterday(just now) and it's the last shoot so hopefully we do not need to reshoot it anymore. things went fine yesterday(just now). glad that this time round i'm the chill pill. wesley and i went to con burger king. so we got free food. LOL. it was damn funny because i was telling wesley about the conning plan infront of pops.

shoot overran even though it was at it's max timing. but everything was well done. thank you jeanette, ryan, melissa, (do i need to thanks pops?) andy as well as roy and also all the rest who helped us in one way or another.

very tired. class at 9am later. this is shit. i need sleep.



they have the most innocent thoughts that triggers creativity. i hope i can go back to my childhood days where my creative juices are at it's peak. damn. i have no originality. i need to have a style. kills.

2006-07 Undercover Investigation Reveals Abuse
and Neglect at All Creatures Great and Small

Watch more videos at PETA.org



in north carolina, they pump poison gas into the "killing box" to kill the shelter dogs and puppies. you can hear the dogs wailing and scratching the box to let them out. i wonder how much their pay is for them to such inhumane job. totally lack of compassion and sympathy.

just what else can i say about it?

i cried watching these videos. i'm an animal lover myself. with like 3 dogs at home, i totally feel them. what makes us different from a beast then? for fuck sake, stop animal abuse.

finally i broke down. my head's spinning like mad now. from all the constant stress in school, trying to be ok even when i'm not and especially recently after my mood got affected by many other people. i'm sorry momsie and pops that my temper recently is getting worse. i need more sleep. i need a rest badly.

tommy kept asking me to go run with him. but i'm really tired and lazy and short of time. i need to go for a run soon. like later in the night after defa shoot or something. sighs.

i am feeling very, very sad. haven't been spending time with my family for the past 4 weeks. and even when cny is approaching, i still can't find time to go out with my momsie. i had less than 6 hours of sleep and tmr, have to go for shoot again. and mid feb got jacky's shoot. and march got boi's shoot.

pool today was speechless. angel, yongkang and i had to cover for those who couldn't come last minute. not bad. i won one match lor. i is zai. greg's champion.

went town to have lunch with them. i was so tired, i went home after the meal. i shall go to sleep now. momsie wants to go steamboat later.

the trip to planet pluto (i swear i heard pluto is actually a star instead from somewhere/someone) was nice. it was a sweet escape (this term is so over rated and cheesy).



a small group makes a little-just-nice gathering. very different from the upteen people gathering. but i must say, it's a bit too quiet as compared but it was nice nonetheless. laughters still filled the air with tang san zhang and sun wu kong around. it made me forgot all about the shits i've been facing in japan (code word for school) recently. like i've said, a sweet escape.

we were sitting at this place with a BIG DURIAN. and there's this ill mannered lion nearby kept spitting non stop. we tried to capture it but we disappointed ourselves.

ok cut the crap. we celebrated kt's and jacen's birthday in advance. too early but better than nothing right. i know they've enjoyed as much as we do. though everyone was like damn tired and sleepy (jacen even fall asleep halfway). i hope they like the present (they better do anyway).



we had a whole table of food! stingray, fried kuay tiao, fried hokkien mee, fried oyster egg, sambal sting ray, doughstick salad, satays and chicken wings. on top of that, we had SECRET RECIPE'S BANANA CHOCOLATE CAKE. i swear if it's not because of all the delicacies, i would finish the whole three slices of them man.



sat and chatted after dinner. i like random and stupid conversation. tt's graduating next week. tamade. so fast lor. i still got slightly more than a year left.

one year anniversary coming. omg. time fucking flies.



goodnightlovesishallmakeatripdowntostarplutoagainlaterduringmysleep.xD

Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org

i dont know. my heart hurts whenever they hit them on the ground or had a knife slicing in between their fur and flesh.

we are so much more fortunate than them.

i have blogged enough for the day.

thank you, my first friend in poly.



☠ ♠.maomaopiggy.♠ ☠.™
i rather hang out w someone that know i exist

this sentence from first friend is very impactful. i love you first friend and i know you love me too.

we shared alot in common. even our best friends are best friends. no amount of thank yous is enough for this first friend here. all i wanted to say is, thank you, thank you and thank you. i'm happy to see that you're VERY happy with cherine now. i apologise for times when i ain't there or wronged you. i'm glad that i'm going through my ups and downs in this phrase of my life with someone who understand if not, try to understand me. at least he's a friend who makes me feel that i exist and that i'm also a human, a girl.

yes. best friends gathering later. at last, something i can look forward to. =))

good night after a good cry.

somehow i miss talking and complaining and ranting to someone. no one in particular. i feel that the world is out to get me. i am missing out from everyone. every single conversation. i don't feel important. in fact, i think that i'm very easily forgotten. i don't like this feeling but what else can i do? i'm trying to stay away from everyone, one by one. it may feel lonely for awhile but i'm sure i'll get use to it sooner or later.

Joshua, Mark and I are still stuck in 3d lab now at 10.22pm.
Yay!
They are complaining that their nasi goreng is too spicy.
Hansheng's perfume smell damn nice.
Meowin is damn cute. He blushed just now.

Ok. I am going to sell the photo below. Highest bidder wins. I'm sorry I couldn't get him to flash his pebbles to you guys.

makes me happy happy happy happy.
waking up listening to their songs is like a bonus to the day.
i don't feel like going to school today because i have a gut feeling something bad will happen.
i hope i'm wrong about it.

anyway, mayday rocks my socks luh prease.

ok. back to ripping.

public speaking came to an end a few hours ago. i'm marked down because i read from the piece of paper.

class outing to weiyen's family's bistro next week. we had this mini class "outing" after lesson today at the prata house. mee goreng x teh-o limau ice. it's nice knowing them. vsc, moi, pid, iad, adm, imd. all very nice people.

i was walking home despite the pain from the blister on my feet caused by the pumps. so anyway, i think alot. like about yesterday. why did i kinda blow my top at people. i was on the verge of breaking down. i don't like siew cheng. i don't like yvonne suddenly. i don't know why. i think peng influenced me (in terms of film making).

the interview room ain't happening today. film language class stinks.

i don't know. i don't like to walk pass somebody i know very well in school and yet we don't talk. it's kinda funny and i don't like that funny feeling. i don't like to entertain people i don't really know.

70 was fun today. so many people. sarah, darryl, germaine, dora, syafiq, carmen, this guy who i don't know his name and myself. had a little chat with darryl and sarah. sip, doc. very soon, they juniors will be going for their sip. but most of them promised to crush doc. they definitely must.

still. i think today or well, yesterday is not a very good day.

i shall ponder lesser and hit the sack now. but gastric's hurting like nobody's business again. i tried vomiting just now but it didn't help.

shit the internal organs.

i hope it's not stomach ulcer. i don't want to go for operation.

I don't like submission week.
Everyone is having attitude problems and it makes me feel even worse.
Siew cheng is not helping. I don't like DEFA anymore.
I'm still thinking about the offer of going for early internship.
I want healthier lifestyle.
I need to sleep early.
Time of the month.
I'm feeling so tired.
I hit Moshy again just now.
Heart pain.
I randomly want to make out with Joshua. He is talking to Nick and he is like sitting like an Ah Beng. Like so hot luh. He just came over to look at what I typed and he said he shouldn't have come to school to watch a stupid film and now Mark is looking at this too.

Nick and Mark are molesting MOSHY now!!

Moshy screams " COOOKIEEEEEEEE!!!!"

Nick is masturbating Moshy now. I feel to weird. All of them looking. bahhs.
Peng on the light alr.

booo
bye

look at what linda did behind our back in saudi! but tuffy looks damn cute. nobody believes he's actually 13 years old. or was it 15?



the two huge monsters are already in singapore undergoing the one month quarantine. so, sooner or later, we shall welcome two member to this messy household. new running partners. who need tommy when there is stallion and axle? lol. kinda excited. hopefully can go visit them soon.

alright. back t best friend; youtube.

oh yes. say hi to submission week.

it came as a big blow to me.
be strong my dear, you can do it because i know you can.
you've endured so much shit before and you're still standing here irritating (or vice versa) the shit out of me.
many prayers for you alright. loves.

and condolences to Kevin and his family as well. though i don't really know him.

on a happier note,

happy belated 18th birthday my darling gayish Issac.
and happy 20th birthday to my wonderful vice president of DSC and the guy with the smallest eyes in design school, David Lee Dao Ming.

wasn't a good day in school. pretty much irritated since past 12 pm because of people who have to fucking call me early in the damn afternoon. especially just to tell me criticisms about the posterinformation-slip that i did for DOC. It was unnecessary to spoil my day. But Cookie asked me not to be sad because his handsome owner likes it.

and then at night, the same person have to irritate me again. seriously, is there like any fucking problem to not talk to me when my face show "DO NOT DISTURB ME"?

felt much better after looking for the rest at 3d lab

i seriously need to sleep but i is have a lot of work to do.

back to work.

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i know i've been a bitch lately. laughing at the moment and next moment i'm damn irritated. bare with me because it's the monthly submission week.

21hours of film production straight is hell.
10am-7am.
verm, mark and i are shack shit now. ("shack is tired after sex". "snap chop twist")

and some minor problems within the defa group is happening again. if it fails again this time round, then i shall just fuck it and not do anything about it again. but i've just fall in love with production all over again. although it's some tired like fuck job.

art direction is not easy.

i think my main motivation was japnut. he's damn cute like seriously. and his boss. fucking zai DOP.

verm mark and i walked to lorong 9 see pros then we saw durian and we went to have it then went back to location and watched wanyang and "tiao tang" and yeahness, work began after that.

randy drove me and two person back in his vintage car. damn noisy luh the car but who cares because i managed to fall asleep.

i am hungry but i am sleepier. nabei.

entry not in sequence.

and i damn malu today. ask mark and verm. and i was scratching my inner thigh because there was a mosquito that bit me and mark thought i was scratching somewhere near it because of a pte joke prior to that.

can't wait for more shoot. damn. japnut is damn cutecoolhandsome luhhh



ok. i shall go dream of him now at 8.30 in the god damn morning.

Along the way in search of the true self, we've all forgotten who we really are.



did we chose to be like that,



or born to be like that?

If not, why are behaving like this?

I swear if one day i went missing, Sheena will be the first person to find me.

So it's pass 12am and i shall now talk about yesterday.
Finally booked my FTT. LIKE FINALLY.
Went down town to meet up with Sheena.
Walked around.

She's like a damn nice friend. Despite being tired out from school work for the whole day and is sick, she still came down town to meet up with me.
And she bought Yellow havaianas for me as a belated xmas gift.
So now we got 3 pairs of the same color flips.



Starbucks again before Cynthia came with Momsie and fetched her and us home.

APEL at 9am later.
3 on 3 Bball at 1pm later.
Captain's Ball at 4.30pm later.

OH YUH SHIT. I IS HAVEN'T DO THE RUNDOWN FOR SUNDAY AND I AM STILL HAPPILY CHATTING ON ADIUM.

Anyway,

HAENZ®
haha 1:39
go buy gucci de la lol 1:40

fionehneh. DOC SUBCOM INTERVIEW FROM 21ST-25TH 9AM-9PM AT 3-10/F. BE THERE OR BEWARE
you buy for me luh 1:40
my bday coming 1:40
haha 1:41

HAENZ®
haha wen ur birthday? 1:41

fionehneh. DOC SUBCOM INTERVIEW FROM 21ST-25TH 9AM-9PM AT 3-10/F. BE THERE OR BEWARE
april 12th 1:41
haha 1:41

HAENZ®
still long sia 1:41
lol 1:41

fionehneh. DOC SUBCOM INTERVIEW FROM 21ST-25TH 9AM-9PM AT 3-10/F. BE THERE OR BEWARE
coming soon loh 1:41

HAENZ®
CNY haven come now u say april coming -.- 1:42

fionehneh. DOC SUBCOM INTERVIEW FROM 21ST-25TH 9AM-9PM AT 3-10/F. BE THERE OR BEWARE
iya. you ask alr also wont buy 1:42
lol 1:42

HAENZ®
will if ur birthday is next wk i buy for u lor 1:42
lol 1:43
cna buy but u w8 for april lor

SO, Mr Siow is going to buy a Gucci landyard for my birthday but after that he deny it and say he was mentioning about the nike landyard i mentioned earlier on in the conversation.

and he actually like after don't know how many donkey years finally added something new to his damn nick and I felt damn honoured.

hansheng_s88@hotmail.com is now known as HAENZ® FIONA BLACKMAIL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. 1:46




back to work. BYE

Since Yumi tagged me about my hair, did I mention that 9 out of 10 pple in school couldn't recognise me? I walked pass shak and he said hi to Carmen behind me. I turned to him and he got a shocked.

And then Gina from SA asked me what's my name. It's the first time people asked me for my name. BOOS.

I woke up at 12 specially to do my work. Yes. Bye bitches.

Big Ben sent me pictures Ungku took during the tp vs sp rugby match. i look damn ugly in the pictures.



I love the moments the fellow designers spent together having fun.

DOC main com meeting in the morning was alright. I think because we still don't know one another thus, we weren't that united but as time goes by, I know it would. Next week's recruitment and I did the poster!!



(click for larger view)

Most of my friends are in Media. So please remember to call me out for supper or late night chats.

I think Jean, the Public speaking lecturer must be really piss at us. We submit late, no, we don't even submit our work at all. And so she was really A-N-G-R-Y at us today. We felt the tension. Especially the part where we kept laughing. The class smelt of cat food today because iskandar, mark and weixiang bought 3 cans of tuna and 2 loafs of bread to class. And they damn nice. Gave me 1/2 can of the tuna all to myself! Did I mention IT AS canteen sell damn nice fried banana?





















Anyway, I swear Peng is the sexiest lecturer in design school. Damn. If only I was born earlier. I shall join Yumi and Carmen in their "I want to marry Peng"'s adventure.

ok. I have more research to do today. And rundown for sunday. WISH ME LUCK PLEASE. THANKYOU.



you're damn cute please

this is for you. you is can do it so you will do it. i know things have been tough on your side and they just seems to be getting worse but i have faith in you that you can do it. just persevere a little bit more and TADAH. if you get through it this time round, nothing is impossible to you next time round!



CHEERS!

i finally get my ass off my bed early to run some errands for myself.
got my contacts like finally.
went back school for defa meeting.
went to bedok with carmen for lunch and cut my hair.



yes. it is me.

and i swear i am going back to whackkillpunchshit that hairdresser.
i stressed on the hair length so much before she started and she still over cut.
i don't trust female hairdresser anymore.
came back to school and now i a stuck in public speaking class again.



i is miss my hair.

tmr still must reach school early and there's alot of work to do for public speaking today. damn.

days are getting slower each day. everyone are busy with their god damn life. cdi, assignments, classes and what's not. god damn shit.

i don't even have the time to go cut my hair. i shall go tomorrow after defa meeting. i hope it ends by 1.30pm.

kenny g is damn sexy. i love the saxophone part like seriously luh.

i is very excited to work with the new main com for doc. what tomu and caleb said is true "the trophy is not important. what's important is all of us enjoyed ourselves." first meeting on thurs. yes. i am so looking forward to it.

also, i'm looking forward to royston tan's new indi short film about the little love that blossom in a public toilet. it'll only be roughly 8 mins long but i'm sure it will be some dope shit.

go meow go. grab your balls pluck some courage and you is can do it.

i miss Da Pham. i is long time no talk to aida and ain prolly. if you decided to fall back one day, we'll be right behind you. those precious time. how time flies. 2006 april. and now, it's nearing 2008 april but i is still loving it.

i wonder what will it be like if i go missing from earth one day? will somebody look around for me frantically or nobody will even notice of my disappearance.



definitely needed.

this totally crack me up. damn funny please.

and i am going for a morning jog later because brother pushed me a plate of wanton noodle at 12.15am. DAMN. actually i just wanted to have a slice of bread lor.

fionehneh. ha ha ha ha kim, pm me when you see this.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
then we shall all return him 3 punches each

am0s; mensa one go boom.
EHHHH WOOHOOOOOO
ahahahahaha
wah neh neh i love you long time please

i shall not talk much about the big hoo haa recently between some biz students and fellow designers. i still insists on calling ourselves designers despite the fact that there are some people out there who are not pretty happy about that and seriously, i do not know why is that so.

just because we are the smallest in number doesn't mean we are that easily defeated. i swear we are gonna try our damn best to win back that damn trophy. we are small but we are one.

and i think it was quite embarrassing to be trapped in design school because of a game of hide and then you guys have to beg one of us to open the damn door for you so that you wont pee in your damn pants. and next, what happen? we got criticized in some blogs. like wth?

moses is dam smart with the card lock system.

No hard feelings to friends in other school. I just want to defend for my own school and my fellow schoolmates. Every school got their own unique way to bond their students and for us, it's the term; designers. It's not just a term alone, it's our common identity. You bring up the school, you bring up yourself. I apologise for what the fellow designers had done but I don't think they are in the wrong. I think evryone should just stop bitching and complaining.

Anyway, it's the 15th jan today and it marks the 6th year. Tell me about it.

I am stuck in the public speaking class. I'd ended my presentation and it went quite well. Thank you Yumi for helping with the speech and Nick.

Mensa foodcourt exploded and I want to go DSC meeting.

-

So I went for meeting after class then Amos and I went to techno to wait for the rest. I always love the catching up with fellow main coms after meeting. It's been quite long since we had such dinner tgt. It was nice. Really.

FINALLY...

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji