Really appreciate everyone who played a big part in my life.

Sheena, we've seen how each other grow up. Thank you for been my pillar of strength, being there for me all the time and thank you for hearing all my rantings. Thank you for your massive usage of toilet paper too. LOL. hostage eh? Love you confidante.

Ester, no matter how not often we talk/chat, thank god for you. Less than a call away always. I hope this friendship will last for as long as I can wish for. Thank you for being there for me when no one else would. Love you best friend.

Yumi, thank you for the company in school and sorry for the harsh words that I've used whenever I'm in a bad mood. Yes we seldom talk but you know I always cared for you and seriously, I don't think anyone can read my mind as well as you. Thank you for letting me realised I'm not an irritating person. Thank you for regarding me as a good friend. Love you wife.

Jacen, thank you for listening to my rantings and bitchings with me since block 1, year 1. Sorry for all the ugly stuffs I did in front of you. Thank you for just sitting down with me and not uttering a word when I'm down. You may not remember but I do. And thank you for 69/70 with me all the time. Love you brother.

Mark, thank you for enduring my lousy temper and all my emo periods in class. Thank you for listening to my rantings, bitchings and all the gossiping. Emo period rocks. I don't know what else to say to you but you know, thank you for making my 2007 happier. Love you brother.

Nicholas, thank you for irritating me all the time because I'm kinda getting addicted to it. Thank you for your brain if not I don't think I can get good grades for projects. Thank you for your stupidity because they make school life happier and more enjoyable. Thank you for teaching me about forgiving and forgetting. I still remember what you said. Love you son.

Warren, thank you for being my handsome pumpkin. It's nice seeing you becoming more outspoken from a very shy and quiet boy. Thank you for being such a nice guy who gets bully by me and thank you for seldom saying no to me. You know, school will never be the same without you popping out randomly. So, when is our next round the neighborhood session? Love you husband.

Buddy, thank you for even forgetting my birthday. Random calls and chats are always nice. 10 years of friendship is not easy to maintain. Thank you for introducing to many nice but irritating friends to me. Thank you for being such an ass sometimes. Buang 11 times eh? Love you Buddy.

Joshua Ang, no amount of thank yous are enough. A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU FOR EVERYTHING. Love you like I always do.

Martin Loo, thank you for being an ass all the time. Thank you for all the late night makan session. Thank you for random calls to catch up. Thank you for driving me around and never ask for anything in return. Thank you for being my friend. Love you love.

Kelvin, Brandon, KT, thank you brothers. I don't know what else to say to you guys. I don't think yall will even get to read this. Kelvin will probably skip this whole page after seeing so much words and KT probably read a few lines and will start looking for his name. LOL. Really. Doing camps will never be as fun without you guys around. Sorry KT if I'm being mean to you all the time but you know, your stupidity are such a laugh sometimes. And Brandon, thank you for being there and talking senses to me all the time. =)) Loves.

Tommy, thank you for those nights. Loves.

Design Studies Club AY 07/08, thank you Caleb and Tom for pangseh-ing me (hurs) and thank you for being a good mentor and senior and friend. Tom, thank you for being my OGL, my fellow GL, my fellow main com member who is one day younger than me. Thank you Mathilda and Hajar for helping me all the time. Thank you David for keeping me quiet whenever I start to gossip/complain during meeting. Thank you Abby for being a helpful senior. Thank you Amos and Ronald for making meetings more enjoyable. Amos, now you know how highly I think of you huh. =)) Thank you Zul, Weihon, Gabriel for whatever. LOL.

Da Pham and it's extended (Cheryl, Wilson, Big Ben, Rino, Joshua Tan, Wesley Kow, Carmen etc.), you know who you are. Thank you for making school life enjoyable for me. Thank you for all the fun times we had together. Thank you, thank you and thank you.

Novem, thank you for all the stupid random jokes you came up with. PRODUCER ROCKS LA EH!

Jason Tan, thank you for being a brother to me all this time. Thank you for sharing personal experiences with me. Thank you for telling me what's right and wrong. Thank you for making me a better person. Thank you for all the jokes and laughters and all the happy times together, excluding the nightwalks part thanks. Love you brother.

I nearly miss out my MOI COURSEMATES! Huizhen, Meimei, Tina, Rina, Ah Ma, Yilong, KK, KY, Yvonne and all the rest of MOI, BIG THANK YOU for making MOI the most fun course in Design. Thank you because if not for you guys, I would be thinking that I've being going to school for nothing. Thank you for all the help in school in some way or another. Loves loves.

To the rest of friends in design school (Matthew, Jason Feng, BenGab, Hansheng, Angel, Cherine, etc), school will never be the same without you guys around. Sorry if somehow or rather I disturbed your everyday peaceful life.

And thank you Joseph Ang. Thank you thank you thank you. I hope you're doing well. I hope all the best for you. I love you many many fluffies.

And to those who made me me today by leaving. I've grown up because of you guys. I've grown to see the real world and how ugly can this world be because of you people. Thank you for appearing in my life once and taught allowing me to realise who are my real friends and who aren't.

Seriously, this year has/had/have been a turning point in my life. I got to realise more about myself. My temper, my thinking, my emotions, my feelings and I'm still learning more about myself. I've lost friends who were once so dear to me. People like Shui Kim who once meant so much to me are not even my friends anymore but because of people like her, I've learn my mistakes of making the wrong friends and have grown out of the cry-because-i've-lost-a-friend phrase. Yes, I do miss the past sometimes but it's the memories that I miss. Ok this is not in today's topic.

Thank you people for making m 2007 worthwhile and enjoyable. Thank you for playing a big part in my life. And the rest who I've never mention, thank you you too.

Last day of the year. I want to watch the Taiwan countdown. I want to see Mayday and Aska. I don't want to be out in the streets even though I love to watch loser fireworks. I hope all of you will have a nice day out celebrating. Loves.

And what about 2008 resolution? I've never fulfill any of them before so let's not talk about new year resolution. But I would want to smile more, talk less, do more, emo less. =))



This song is the culprit to my endless emo nights. Take a few minutes to load and listen. He can really melt your heart with his voice. If Warren and Sheena think so, I think you would too.

i didn't know my presence makes people feel comfortable. i always feel that i'm pretty much of an irritating person. more coming up next entry. it's 6.21am now and i am really, really, very sleepy.

goodnight.

Aska's songs made me emo.

I've got so much to handle and I don't think I can suppress this stress anymore.
I know it's not a lot on my side but different people got different stress level.
School from 3-9, APEL on 2 saturdays, DEFA reshoot, D'olympics on 3 saturdays, open house from 9-11th and Seniors FYP. (I've backed out from Matt's production)

THE WORST THING IS ALL THESE ARE HAPPENING ALL JANUARY.

I feel like a loser now because I want to give up everything. And because all my close friends are not in the same school, i can't find a comfort in school at all.

And fuck to those who thinks/said i got a lot of friends because I DON'T and even if I do, who cares about how many friends one have? dont come comfort me with "you got this and that ma" or "you always with them, where got no friends?"

i envy those who are in the same school as their close/best friends. very funny. a lot people made new best friends in their new school/environment but i'm still stuck in the past, in my own comfort zone.

i don't open up to people who i ain't close with unless i chose to do so. but even so, if you realised i only talk to you about school, gossip about friends, and joking with you, it means that i've not open up to you. so that means, i've never open up to anyone in design before.

i know there are alot of people who loves me in design but if there is someone else who need you, will you still be there for me?

I TOLD YOU ASKA'S SONGS MAKES PEOPLE EMO!

i miss joseph for the hundredth and one time. and i have to keep reminding myself he's no longer around.

fuck it.

passed my btt yesterday. i was very nervous because i only started reading/studying an hour before my test. i had an etrial before my actual one and i failed so i only had like 15mins to study and i kept contemplating whether i should click on the "end test" or not and when i finally do so, i passed. cheers.

lucky i never throw my parents' face cause all my siblings are all one-time-pass. have yet to book ftt though.

youtube's the sex to me now. i hope linda gets a pay rise so i can get an itouch then i can youtube anywhere, anytime. lol.

i was telling yumi i feel very lonely suddenly. i think i got split personalities too. hi judy. you'll be able to guess who judy is if you're smart enough.

next block gonna be hell for me. back to the 3-9 block. film language and public speaking. no time for family, friends and myself. and so i will see mark for the whole of next block again. i shall pester him about how handsome jam and aska are even though i know he's kinda sick of it.

gastric gone. ate like 2 painkillers and 2 bottles of the brown bullets. i hope it wont come back again. tommy asked me to eat proper meal. look who's talking eh? hurs.

6am now. nights.

missed defa meeting this morning. apologies.
btt later on and i haven't started studying.
changed my blog song. i like the catchy tune.

josh wished me merry xmas this morning which is very belated.
and he said my previous post was emo.
i'm not josh. i just want to act profound. LOL.

gastric again. bahhs.

unplanned gathering with familiar faces on the streets evokes murderous thoughts and deepest memories.

i do not need to give a reason to answer for my reaction (of blushing and skipping a beat or two). because it is simple, i still feel for you probably a little lesser than how i used to.

a little feverish night. nights.

i only woke up at 7pm on christmas day because i only slept at like 7.30am that morning. sheena had a nap before she went off at 12.45pm.

so i spent the whole day watching videos on youtube till now which is like 4am. 萧敬腾 (Jam Xiao) really mesmerized me with his voice and yes, i spent the whole day watching his videos. i swear he is better than jay. i want to marry him.



aska yang's voice is not bad too. he's voice is more of the touching category. i want to marry him too. so i shall add the two of them to my never ending "i-want-to-marry-him-list".

can't wait to meet up with ester because she is back from paris!

happy boxing day!

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你把你放在我心中

the conversation at prata house just now reminded me of you.
it dug deep into my memories.
it wasn't a pleasant trip down the memory lane.

oh well, it's all over now for the time being.

sheena and i are sitting on the bed macbook-ing while kt is emoing on the floor watching brothers.





nice to spend a relaxing xmas eve with a couple of good friends.



merry xmas people =))

咖啡麻醉不了孤單　只會讓心更燙
咖啡麻醉不了孤單　只會讓夜更長

merry xmas to you too.

it's tiring to cry yourself to sleep at night.

5.12am and abby's production call time is 11am later. hurs.
one million star too addictive already.
ester is arriving tomorrow morning. hope she'll have a safe trip back. =)
family's back from KL already. imma happy kid now.
darling mojo went back already too. bahhs.

basically nothing much these days.
i think nick's blog is kinda fun to read. very creatively blogged.
and yumi's photography and editing skills are improving so much.

can't wait for monday to arrive.
sheena bought her mac already.
that noob-and-tech-idiot is using mac and she is afraid she won't get used to it.
stupid shit but i love you. lol.
i'll give you some human viagra.
so let's head to island cremary soon.

back to show. bye.

Wasted my damn time in school today. Edited the video for nothing. In the end, we have to reshoot from scratch again. And we are seriously behind time. Let's see how we are going to be able to handle this piece of shit again.

Carmen, I hope this time round you will prove me wrong. ;)

Had lunch, meeting with SC, yada yada around, watched tom and jerry and collected the DSC shirts. Thank god Verm was willing to help me.

I hope Huizhen's group success in today's shoot cause it rained just now.

WHA. SOME GUY SAID IN HIS BLOG SAID I SUCK.
Mark, tell your best friend I just suck literally.

Some guys just er... sour grapes. Because we didn't call him out for our outings, he said I suck. Cool bodoh. Got attitude. LOL.

Limjian owe me lunch because he didn't have lunch with me today. He only called and asked, "want go smoke anot?" He wants me to die early. Bad bad bad.

And I got a lot of shows from Jason Feng. Omg. I can chiong them already and enjoy the remaining of my no-life-1-week-holidays.

i am really happy now.






i really am and it's because of you.

Parents, Dajie and Sarah were supposed to drive to KL on Thursday 12am but as I was sleeping, I heard their voices at like 3+am. I thought I was dreaming but indeed they came back.

Pops complained to me while I was half asleep. So apparently halfway through the journey (still in s'pore) they went to pump the tires. And then I think the tire burst so they went to change the tire which took them quite some time. It was in the wee hours you see. And then, the worst part was that they were locked outside the car because the keys were inside the car and our car autolocked itself on them. So Brother drove down to rescue them. And thats why they came home.

And then they set off again yesterday at 10.30am or so. I was still sleeping. So it was Bammy and I home together only (since Brother only comes home after 11 most of the days). Had lunch with Bammy at Bedok. Bought Sushi for our dinner. Hurs.

Went to run with Warren. Brought Mojo down. Bad choice. I ran only 3 rounds. 3.6km only. Sian. Sat down halfway and chatted. LOL. Two losers.

It's 12.24am now. I'm still chiong-ing my "One Million Star" on crunchyroll. I want to watch Popeye. Apparently Verm heed my advice and went to watch Popeye and it cooled her down. Yay. Cartoons helps to destress.

Talked to Momsie over the phone just now. No Mommy at home again. Feels damn weird. FYI, I'm very attached to my Momsie.

And Ester Voon NEVER reply my mail. whatanass. HURHUR

Life's pretty much the same. Doing the same thing over and over again for the past few days. DSLR are orgasmic but expensive.

I want to do a lot of things this holiday but apparently 24hours a day is not enough for me. Random photo shooting, chilling at starbucks, meeting up with bedok khakis, stayovers with snack, spending quality time with family, star watching, chiong serials and recuperating .

Editing to do later on. Saw the footages for DEFA. Not very good. I dong like. Bahhs.

De Novo is the name. Google it if you dong know what it means.

And LJ failed his Advance theory because he was sick so he didn't study for it. LOL.

Nick is back from Manchester.
Warren wants to go for a run this thursday. Maybe I'll bring Mojo if that little darling is staying over.



This is so old school. Power Rangers first season. When I was just a kid back then. "go go power rangers. mighty morphine power rangers" Truly old school. I want to buy their DVD. Wonder where can I get them.




i still miss you.

Fiona sucks.
Sometimes I hate myself for being myself.

Anyway, I'm so deprived of sleep.
I fall asleep at Jason's shoot today.

We ate a lot for this production.
And I got no time to go for run.

Bammy bought True Singapore Ghost Stories 15 so I'm going to read abit before going to sleep.
Thai songs damn nice please. Transferred a lot Thai songs from Brother.
I finally gotten Prison Break Season 1 from Dajie.
Will start to watch next week. I know I slow.

And I seriously needa get some rest now.
Bye world.

p/s: Voon is coming back!

14 hours of filming straight and in less than 7 hours time, another 10 hours production.
i'm gonna break down soon.

i need alot of sleep but apparently i won't be getting much of it till next week.

anyways, great job Wesley, Mark, Bern and Verm. We survived FOURTEEN hours of filming straight!
thanks Yoke Ee, Tina, Rinna and Yilong who Rinna and Yilong survived FOURTEEN hours of filming with us.
thanks Ryan, Jeanette, Pops and Melissa for surviving FOURTEEN hours of filming with us.
and Moms for coming down and occupy the place and surviving FOURTEEN hours of filming with us.

Glad production is over, hopefully no more reshoot yo.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SHEENA CHIANG YAN PIN.

In a blink of an eye, it's been 2 years going to three. It's funny how we even became friends and throughout this going-to-3-yrs friendship, we've gone through so much that it seems to be more like 5 yrs? I really appreciate your friendship and will definitely treasure it. Because you've seen both the ugliest and the prettiest part of me in my life. Thanks for been so understanding of me and being there whenever I needed someone to be. We've seen how each other grow up and how our thinking changes along the way. I wish you every happiness in your life and I LOVE YOU MANY MANY.

p/s hoped you enjoy the surprise celebration. MWAKS.

Jason's shoot this afternoon. Surprisingly, both sound man for Boi's production were there. Patrick's student is Jason's friend who is the sound man. Small world. But they damn zai. Now I don't dare to be sound(wo)man already.

Left at 4 to meet Jacen and KT.

HERE'S THE ULTIMATE PLAN FOR SHEENA'S BDAY:

Bought Sheena's present and we headed to Bugis. Jacen was to queue for steamboat first while KT and I went to look for the rest. Toot's hp's low batt so we couldn't contact her but luckily when I went to search for her, I found her! So they headed to steamboat first while I waited for Sheena. We slowly walked down to the steamboat place and we walked past the rest but Sheena didn't see them. It was when I turned over and "eh! kel. why you here sia?" then Sheena saw and she ws very surprised. Then finally she saw Tine, Jol, PQ and Toot. LOL. Steamboat was nice. Alot laughters as usual. Then we cut cake and gave her the fake present (crumpler new carrier which looks like a bag). After the cake, she went into the shop and we put the real present (crumpler redXred Large sling) into the fake bag and when she came back, she was damn happy. OF COURSE HAPPY LAR.

I did not throw a single hint to her about her bday celebration and all along she thought that it's gonna only be the two of us. And she was kinda upset because we do not know when is the next instructors meeting but apparently it happened on her birthday.

We slacked awhile before all of us went home. Very tired. Tomorrow still got shoot and I must wake up at 7am. BAHHS.



KT and Sheena reminded me about the you-know-who and I had difficulties brushing the person off my mind. Bahhs. So I was kinda emo after that but I'm alright now! I'm just very sleepy.

Haha. Kel so nice. He called to see whether I've reached home safely or not. So cute.
OK. Nights.

I swear my legs are going to break soon. I can feel the stretch on my calves. Warren is very shitty. He kept saying he got no stamina but apparently he does.

Ran from St hildas, pass my place, pass TP, cut through Angkeong, across the park and to opposite my place. Warren ran back home from there and I ran another round opposite my place and then back home. My legs are breaking. And we ran from 10.15 to 11 to cover up the whole journey. It'll be better if I didn't keep stopping.

Earlier that day was spent in school. Was late for Jason's briefing. It was only 15 mins late (his briefing lasted less than 15 mins). Then it was slacking with Matthew and Simon then in Audio with Warren and Rino. Warren and I then planned our running route. Then I had DEFA meeting after that and then Warren and I headed to Cheryl's place after DEFA meeting.

Thanks a million Cheryl. =)) We had buddy meal at her place and it was damn oily. But felt better after the run. I think I jogged more than I ran so ya, after the jog. So ya, Warren and I were sleeping on the sofa when Nick came and disturbed me and Cheryl went to distur Warren. I was SLEEPING. The fan damn shiok. And then Cheryl's hamster shit on Nick's hand. HURHUR

Whatever. And I am damn fed up and pissed off now. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

Group work can be such a pain in the ass sometimes.

AHHH. I AM SERIOUSLY STILL VERY ANGRY.
No, LJ, ice cream cannot chill me now.

WHA. I FEEL LIKE KILLING SOMEONE/SOMEBODY/SOMETHING.
But of course I can't because I don't want to land up in jail.
So much stuffs going on and I don't know how to handle it. I am spending less time at home which is just the opposite of what I wants to do. I though I could have some time off next week but apparently I've got to be down for Jason's shoot. I want to spend more time with Mummy like seriously. SIGHS.

OK FUCK IT. I need to bathe now and I have to reach school at 9am tomorrow.

Yay last day of work.
But still jam packed for whole of this week.
No more timberlake and lumzhongyi and thiangy and the "never say no" guy.
LOL.

Gathering at Yumi's was nice.
Food and more food.
She even ordered Pizzas.
Had this mini work out session.
Then we had the ghost stories session.
It was home sweet home after that.

Thank you Yumi.

And Happy 19th Birthday Carmen.

Bathe bathe nice nice yo.

I think I Buddha alr. Got DEFA but still helping a few seniors for their FYP production. I think I will die all the way to April. VIDPRO and P2 coming. DIE



I think they quite cool eh. It's not easy to get "old" people to dance and rap leh but most probably they might have been paid to do that. But the dubbing sucks.

Erjie called me from Saudi today. So happy to have this 10 mins chat with her. She might get me an ITouch. YOYO.

Everyone is so tired out from DEFA especially Verm, Bern, Mark and myself.
Storyboard is not out for this Sunday's shoot, post pro is gonna be hell because apparently there are already a lot waiting for me to do. Fuck the colour correction and lousy sound collected on the 9th. Fuck the lousy weather and fuck those who don't do work and ain't initiative.

I am very fed up now,
With a lot of people.

There was this period when I can totally "forgive" everyone and be friends even when you do something wrong to me. That point was the "fuck it, dong care" period.
But I am not the nice fiona now. I shall be the bad person now.

Work and gathering later, Defa and Jason's meeting on Thurs, meet up with Sheena on Fri, Jason's Production on Sat, Defa production on Sun. And for the whole of next week, I'll be cope in HD lab doing post production. So fuck it people because I haven't start to rest since the "holidays" started.

Christmas is coming but I'm not having any tiny winy festive mood in me. I'm so tired, so exhausted and no one special to spend Christmas with anyway but Sheena and KT and I are going to celebrate it together. Loners club. Fuck it no clubbing because drinking at home save so much more money.

Life is so mundane nowadays.

Jacky is very talkative but that's goot because he sleeps late and so during those late nights, I've got somebody to chat with.

I need a life seriously.

I dong know what else to blog about but apparently a lot stuffs are running concurrently on my mind and with my limited vocab, I dong know how to put them into words.

I hope my words perfect themselves so that it won't sound so blunt coming out from my mouth.

I dong like to make new friends anymore. I want to be in my comfort zone. Apparently I can't communicate to new friends or friends that I ain't close because I can't seem to open up to them. I wish I can stop ranting and complaining about every other thing because it's not doing myself good.

Hi Mark, dong emo alr. You see now it's the other way round, you emo and you influenced me. Tak cool bodoh.

D'olympics Captains ball yo.
MOI WILL RULE D'OLYMPICS!

And before I go, Good luck seniors for FYP again. Dong so stress la. Yall stress makes me stress also. I'm only a junior ok.

Ok Fiona, stop speaking like a cock.

and I smelled this very familiar cologne smell and I kept taking deep breathe just to take in more of that smell.

buaix buaix.





i'm hanging on the words that you said.

i've never feel so high for a long time.
i'm so sleepy now but i'm not sleeping.
so that makes me damn high.
LOL

ok. good night

I hope I can be like that guy from Heroes;
be able to read mind.

So I can read yous.

1.18am and Sheena woke me up from sleep 10 minutes ago and so, I'm like wide awake now.
Production yesterday was chwee.
We took a damn long time for a less than 5 mins scene.
Weather was one of the cause of it.
It rained for 5 minutes, stop for 3 minutes, rained for 5 minutes again, stop for 3 minutes again and the cycle goes again.
Lucky got enough umbrellas.
And Huizhen and Yilong and Jeanette and Jacky.

And very sweet.
Cause got a lot mosquitoes, then I was doing audio, no hands,
Huizhen sprayed insect repellent for me then Jacky and forgot who asked "spray for fiona alr not?"
Wha. shiok bodoh. Like they very sweet la.

16th will be a long day.
Hope it won't over run because we did not today.
Must stick to timing.
BODOH

And I am very disturbed by something. Bahhs.
Chatted with Yumi who is in Tokyo for like 1/2 hour just now. Shiok.
She is going to buy a lot food back. LOL.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS CHIA PENG YANG aka PYONG YONG.
I LOVE YOU MANY MANY MANY MANY.
*throw confetti in the air*

on the 8th

Nick's 18th birthday party cum gathering was NICE with a capital N.
And he received a lot of new gadgets this year.
And a lot ang paos.
Hope you like what we gave you.
And ya, I love you many, many.

Matthew made him drink a lot with the drinking game.
We had King Vodka this time round.
And it's damn strong. BAHHS

Then it was home together with Matthew.
Fiona is a good girl today because I didn't stay-over.
As much as I really want to but got filming later on.
Sort of anticipating it.
Just hope that it doesn't rain.

I had a very happy day spent with them. Pity Yumi's in Tokyo now.
I laughed a lot today. I love time spent with them.
I love them, very much.

Get well soon Jose.

Today is good because I REFRAINED.
Some secret code that only Mark and Sheena knows.

Ok. Got to rest early.
Nights.

3 Rounds with Bammy is not satisfying.
She kept talking and yakking away.
And I have to stop and wait for her.
But still, we completed 3 rounds together albeit stopping every now and then.

It was home when Tommy called.
"ehhh. guess where am I now?"
I thought he was like under my block or something.
And then he said,
"eating BALESTIER BAK KUT TEH!!"
I swear I was damn jealous.
BELESTIER BAK KUT TEH CAN?!

wha. I damn jealous please.
I've only been there once and he's eating it now.
This is not fair.
I ask him tabao, he ask me go die.
BASKET.
ANGRY BODOH.

I shall go find my eat-good-food-buddy.
BAHHS.
DESPERATE PLEASE.

And I am going to UtterRubbish on Monday.
Shutup. I know I'm slow ok.

And nice, nice senior Weijie is going to lend me his Popart cam.
Wha. NICE, NICE SENIOR BODOH.
His head is going to swell.
And I bet Matthew and Ben had a fun time last night wanking to Youporn.com
HAHAHA.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!

hope everything is going good for you and return to camp scene soon man.
i miss your bitchings!
and your wide, wide smiles.
xD

I was really upset for a while.
And I'm too lazy to go for a run today.
I shall go tomorrow.
Yes, I will.

I'm still quite upset and am disappointed with my temperamental self.
Period.

Went back to school today.
I see things are picking up for DEFA. Good going people. We can do it yo.

Donson and Haenz bought their lappies.
Crumpler casing some more.
I also want. I need to save money alr.
Someone give it to me for x'mas please.

So it's a cooling, rainy day and I am very sleepy.
Can't wait for Saturday to come to see E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E!

I'm watching Betty Boop on Youtube.
Classics please.
Bammy and Pops are watching Kim Possible downstairs.
Sweet uh.

I still like my blog song.
=))

it's the 3rd day.
i miss you.

SLEEPY nd i cant tyoe properly now. tjhis is ow my post gonna be ike if i dnt delete or backspace te tyo. i, actually veory lzy to pdaye but im waiting fro my viedos to load so im illing time here.

i dun thnk anyne would know what im talking abut sctually.

i thik this is veyt funneh. check ut houw many typoe eeroe i hqve. stuif.

hhhhhqhahahha,. ok. think my videos aew loaded. byes

Elleness, Sleeq and Dharni videos on Youtube are orgasmic.
I've got only 7 hours of sleep left.
Goodnight.


get well soon

M Loo is being a typical guy again, as usual.

Work was fine today. Have to walk up and down, up and down, up and down.
And I can't stop laughing because John Tiang is there. LOL.
Surprise, surprise, surprise. I saw Hanqiang working there too.
I was afraid that he don't recognize me so I didn't approach him.
But the funny thing was that, both of us told Jose "I think I know her." (for my case it's "him")
I was telling Jose how I got to know him.

Haha. IRC. Stupid. But like what I told Sheena, I got to know nice friends like Peiyi who apparently gone missing but I know she still visit this site, Xianglong, Xuanrong, Cher, Xueyun, Gina, Akeno, Tommy, Daniel Tok, Kailong, Peijun and some others who I'd lost contact with like Aiken.
So ya, the quiet time in the exam hall was spent thinking about how I got to know all these nice people and wonder how are they doing now. Apparently Hanqiang became more gayish. LOL.

So today was good because I'm not emo anymore but look at the left side bar at the "upcomings!" I've never had such a busy holidays before.

So tomorrow's pubbing is canceled again but Sheena, Jose and I are going 85 for dinner. Let's throw 511 aside and welcome the new 85. I want to eat sambal stingray, sambal kangkong, fried oyster egg and hmm... lala or chicken wings? I don't know but my mouth's all watery now. nehninehnipoopoo.

I miss the Bedok khakis! Hasn't met all of them for a long, long time. Especially Jisheng and Bernard. Bahhs.

So anyway, I was so tired and sleepy and having giddy spells but after I opened Dajie's mini fridge, I'm energetic AGAIN.

I found:



Lime and vanilla ice cream. I hope she buys HIP HOP JELLY next time. That is so damn orgasmic I tell you.



Then I had 5 Ferrero Rochers. Joshua bought me Royce and Ferrero Rocher last year and I finished the Ferrero Rocher and left Royce freezing in the fridge. LOL.

and if you wonder where all the stickies went to,



Dajie went to stick them all over the cover. Please do not stare at this picture for too long because it's out of focus and I CANNOT STAND IT but I'm lazy to take another picture and load it to Moshy again. Lousy picture = giddy spells. Period.

And some days ago, I took cloudies again!




The 2nd picture is another lousy picture I know because there is no focus. Shit. Ugly. EEEW. Double giddy spells.

Ok. and last early this morning when I was about to go to sleep, I had a little chat with Weijie. He was asking me where can he watched Simpsons. So since there's a watchheroes.com, I gave him watchsimpsons.com and he actually click on it. HAHA. Not funny I know.

I want to watch Remeo and Juliet already. Peace.
I shall go run on Thursday instead. I had a date with the crickets. =))


And I'm still thinking of you.

i am happy now because i'm done with my defa script.
and on addition, i did a simple rundown and log list.

i am also happy because the tee shirts issue has been settled and i've finally ordered the 1000 tee shirts for DSC. I know, like only after 3/4 of the AY is gone.

i am happy because two burdens is off my back and not because i've got over what that is bothering me earlier on. because the words kept repeating in my head and i still feel that pinch somewhere there in my heart.

i'm hearing two voices again and today, i can't be bothered with them anymore.

i find solace in blogging. somewhere where i can pin my thoughts on.
i should keep this blog private someday soon.

the more you hope for something to happen, the more it wont.

i'm lost for words.
i need another 5 rounds running session, alone.

KT, Sheena and I are here at Island Cremary. I am 80% done with my script and I shall go home to continue. KT helped me sign up for Wireless@sg. Save my hassel. Hurhur.

And I saw Gary today. So hamsom uh.

Peanut and Butter. =))
I am emo now. Boo.

As you can see, I was going under an emotional turmoil last night or rather, early this morning. I don't know why I was feeling that way. Maybe it was caused by the fatigue.

God bless my friends.

I am running late. Byes.

The typography damn nice please.

I think we got very nice Seniors.
As in my batch MOIMD (Since they are so close. Sometimes I even mix their courses up)
My seniors all damn nice.
So, nice seniors, GO GO FOR FYP.

I don't know why I say they nice.
Maybe because they are nice.
Or because they have never scolded us for being too noisy in the 3D lab.
=))

I miss those days when we all meet up and gossip non stop.
I miss those meals at 511.
I miss that one and only chalet.
I miss those crazy talks.
I miss those times and the memories but not the people.
It's just so not me to just forgo something once so dear to me so easily but apparently it happen this time round. I guess those words I received back then were too hurtful for me to take it. I'm actually quite proud of myself.

I miss going to school in uniform.
I miss sleeping on the desk.
I miss the canteen food.
I miss looking out for the DM.
I miss those laughters in class.
I miss the teachers.
I miss netball trainings.
I miss bargaining with the teachers not to give us anymore homework.
I miss the 5 yrs stay but it brings back bad memories.
Those times were one of the best but also bring back tears and bad memories. I just want to reminisce those good ones once in a while. But some bad memories just fought their way through and I can't help but to feel lousy. But I definitely do not miss those juvenile days.

I miss those times we spent together.
I miss you more than anything else but you're no longer around.
It's still difficult to get over. I just want you back, to stay by our side.

I miss those car rides.
I miss your singings.
I miss your laughters.
I miss your not funny jokes.
I miss how you describe funny people to me.
I miss how you once and again remind me not to slam your car's door.
I miss your ugly dressing.
I miss seeing you in sandals.
I miss you asking me to buy 4D for you.
I miss how you say I curse you.
I miss your calls.
I miss those slacking/chilling/supper session with you.
I miss you and I don't want to.
Because I know it won't work out and we're better being friends. But because you're starting to avoid me, I'm beginning to miss you more.

I miss those Macs session after debrief.
I miss bathing in public toilet.
I miss shouting early in the morning.
I miss those irritating campers asking irritating questions.
I miss my fairfield pri campers.
I miss my compassvale sec campers.
I miss those bravestarians who brought Sheena, YJ and myself chocolates after the camp.
I miss how they made me laugh.
I miss those stupid stuns they do.
I miss sleeping in the sleeping bag out in the open.
I miss the campers but I miss the instructors more.
Because camps can never be fun without the fellow instructors. I really miss doing camps. Sometimes I still smell the morning fresh air and insect repellent. Gathering is not easy anymore with busy people not replying or can't be bothered to reply smses. Sometimes, I feel that we're doing too much and trying to hard to meet up and often, we were taken granted and not being appreciated. So we are giving up.

Too much misses and misses not.

But above everything else, I miss you more than I miss anything/anyone else (other than Jo).
Because I miss your everything including your cologne smell.
Because you made me, me.
Because your lousy language never fails to crack me up.
Because a simple sms from you can make me smile for the whole day.
Because not talking to you for a day makes me emo.
Because we shared too much in common.
Because your face just makes me wanna laugh.
Because I feel sad and lousy when starts to ignore me.
Because I think of you every night before falling asleep.
Because I'm beginning to like you.

"I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart"

And I seriously need to get rid of that phobia and I do not know how. I'm afraid that history might repeat itself and I really don't want it to.

I was actually quite emo but I smiled because Sheena knew me too well. If one day I've gone missing, at least there's one friend out there who might know where I've gone missing to. I'm glad to have gone through rough patches with Sheena. Losing the same group of friends, getting to know the same new friends and just growing up together (thinking wise). And right now, we're waiting for the same person, ESTER VOON! =))

Voon, please come home safely.

4 rounds this time.
Nice, nice Tommy accompanied me.
I was thirsty.
I prayed I'll bang into Pops coming home or Dajie going out,
and I saw Pops coming home.
YAY! so today got 100plus after my run.

and now I got jelly legs.
YAY.

I really hate people who asks stupid question. I forgot who asked me the other day "bus what time come uh?" LIKE HOW THE FUCK I KNOW SIA? I'M FIONA NOT IRIS FOR GOD SAKE.

and another thing, if you got a problem, don't sit there rant and complain. Do something to solve the problem because the problem has got no legs to move by itself. And don't give excuses like "let nature takes it course" to cover your irresponsible attribute. Bottomline: got a problem, solve it.

god damn irritated.

It's a Sunday afternoon at 3.09pm and I am here, in front of Moshy doing DEFA script instead of cuddling up on my nice bed to sleep. So unlike myself but DEFA is seriously screwed. With my limited vocab for Chinese (I only scored a B3 for O's) and not recognising chinese characters, I can't do much to the chinese part. BERNARD HELPPP!

At the same time, script writing is no fun. I can't visualize but since script writing (or post editor) is what I want to do in the near future, I shall practice as much as I can. I'm sure I can do it.

That black xmas tree on my table is still very distracting because I kept thinking what can I put on it. It's so fluffy (sounds like what Yumi would say).

I miss my Erjie. =(

Anyway, was chatting with Leong Chaun over the messenger (not reminiscing the past) about those poor indian construction workers. I mean, people often credit the designer or the person who fork out the money for the projects but not those who builds it. Credits are very important to designers but who shall credit those who make it possible?

So anyway, then we talked about how people can accept Japanese food, Vietnamese food, etc but not African food. LC said it's the human mentality. Eating Japanese delicacies makes one feels high class but eating African delicacies makes people think of AIDS population. How saddening.

Then I felt quite dumb because I am talking to a Biz student and I know nuts about it. After O's, I've only being in touch with like what, pencils, sketchbooks, cameras, computers, photoshop and other editing software. Where is the Maths and Science? Bahhs. But LC said he will start to feel dumb once I start talking about my field (as in what I'm learning now) and that makes me feel much smarter.

Like that time, we walked passed Biz School (no offence) and we saw this really lousy Photoshopped poster hanging at the entrance. And we just cannot take it. Ok. To be fair to them, we can't do accounts for nuts.

And I think I deleted some files and now my iMOVIE and burner doesn't work anymore. BAHHHS. Have to go back to find Gary soon *grins*.

A lot people are getting sick. Hi Jacen, I ate Chicken Leg noodle with extra chili this morning and I just had some titbits. Jacen and Haenz said it must be the durians we had the other day and that reminds me that I need MORE durians soon! Better recover soon if not no pratas on Wed. How sad can this get? Holidays with no good food? It's like having Xmas party with no turkey.

Pops wanted to go IT fair just now. But everybody is so lazy. LOL. He's playing game on one cpu, Dajie is Facebooking on another and poor Fiona got no games to play so she is doing her work.

I'm deciding on either Aikido or Kendo and Judo looks interesting but Bro insists that I learn Ninjado (because he used to learn that). Thai boxing is way too tough for me. That is crazy shit man. Wha, traumatised.

Before I decide on which skills to pick up, I shall go for a run later on. More than 3 weeks since I last ran. OMG. SCARY SHIT. 3 WEEKS!

I shall go back to my script first.

Spoke to Erjie over the phone just now. =))








Because I'd rather spend my bad times with you than spending my happy times with others.

2am and I just reached home. I am very, very tired.
Warren's birthday celebration was great.
Though only a small number of people turned up, the lunch and talks were nice.
Warren was close to tears when he saw Yumi, Carmen, Rino, Jacen and Mark behind him.
(he didn't know of course)
Wesley joined us in the midst of our lunch. We had fruit cake.

Then I met up with Sheena and KT at Vivo.
Sheena and I bought red flops and I bought a pull over.
(Now I am so poor)
Joel, Jacen and Cherine came later.
Had dinner and coincidentally there's fireworks there.
Chilled at some Cafe and Haenz came to join us after work.
The combination was weird but the catch up session together was good.

Had supper with Sis, Pops and Moms after that.
Egg onion prata is loves.
Mummy bought me a Kenneth Cole watch and I am very happy.
It's rose gold in color and so it's damn nice.

I don't like how Sheena's classmates are treating her.
Boos.

I need to reach River Valley Road by 11am later and I'm still not asleep yet.
I shall sleep now so I can have more money tomorrow. Yes.
Nights.









smiles.

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji

咖啡麻醉不了孤單　只會讓心更燙
咖啡麻醉不了孤單　只會讓夜更長

merry xmas to you too.