(Nov 30, 2007)
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MY DARLING HONEY BUNNY WARREN TEY SING LIANG. I LOVE YOU.
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY STRESSY PRODUCTION MANAGER NOVEM TZE!!
same day, same year. how cool?
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY STRESSY PRODUCTION MANAGER NOVEM TZE!!
same day, same year. how cool?
(Nov 29, 2007)
Seriously speaking I haven't been this frustrated for a long, long time. I'm trying hard to cool down. It's not that difficult.
And Yumi is not feeling well yet she still drink. I'm worried about her but I don't know what to do. I haven't been talking to her for a long time as well and I don't know what is happening to her as well. Please Yumi, anything just talk to us. You know we're here for you. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed someone to.
I've been neglecting a lot of people around me these days. I just want to stay in my comfort zone and be a happy person.
I think this holiday is just not right for everyone. I'm losing the energy to cheer people up. I'm not good at it as well. And with my temper nowadays, I don't think I'll be able to do much either.
My lousy temper is coming back and it's scary how fast my mood changes. It's like a roller coaster ride sometimes.
I hope I won't be over dependent on someone. Not now, not ever. I think I shall keep more stuffs to myself. I've been complaining a lot. I just don't feel like talking today.
Sighs.
And Yumi is not feeling well yet she still drink. I'm worried about her but I don't know what to do. I haven't been talking to her for a long time as well and I don't know what is happening to her as well. Please Yumi, anything just talk to us. You know we're here for you. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed someone to.
I've been neglecting a lot of people around me these days. I just want to stay in my comfort zone and be a happy person.
I think this holiday is just not right for everyone. I'm losing the energy to cheer people up. I'm not good at it as well. And with my temper nowadays, I don't think I'll be able to do much either.
My lousy temper is coming back and it's scary how fast my mood changes. It's like a roller coaster ride sometimes.
I hope I won't be over dependent on someone. Not now, not ever. I think I shall keep more stuffs to myself. I've been complaining a lot. I just don't feel like talking today.
Sighs.
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Whenever I'm down, I think of you. Because you never fail to bring a smile across my face. I've got so much to tell you, so much to share with you but we never really had the time to. A simple message from you is enough to keep the smile plastered on my face. Because you are just so yourself. I think I...
you're my red color.
you're my red color.
(Nov 28, 2007)
(edited. just some colour correction)
Issac Teh. My beloved gayish freshie.
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I could stare forever at your picture.
(Nov 27, 2007)
Red Star with Haenz and Donson this morning. I was the first to reach and Donson was the last. Damn lousy. We ate like, only 10 plates of dimsum.
Went to town after that. We saw this girl grabbing her boyfriend's ass right infront of us and we laughed damn loudly. I went back to school for DEFA meeting and Pops is going to act for us. LOL. This is going to be like damn funny. Seeing your own Pops acting.
Went back to town to meet Haenz and Donson. Watched Enchanted. Not a good catch. Should have watch Fred Clause instead. Had dinner at Adam Road Hawker then we went for Island Cremary. The cookies and cream is so much nicer than BnJ's. Haenz had Tiger Sorbet, quite nice too. Saw Bel's friend there but I think he don't recognise me. And I didn't see Ben.
Brother came to fetch me home. Thank god if not I'll be still on my way home I guess.
Felt happier at the end of the day.
Goodnight. Yay! Gonna meet up with Joel this friday with Sheena and KT and maybe Jacen. Major catch up session dude.
Ok. Got to turn in early tonight.
because you were there.
Went to town after that. We saw this girl grabbing her boyfriend's ass right infront of us and we laughed damn loudly. I went back to school for DEFA meeting and Pops is going to act for us. LOL. This is going to be like damn funny. Seeing your own Pops acting.
Went back to town to meet Haenz and Donson. Watched Enchanted. Not a good catch. Should have watch Fred Clause instead. Had dinner at Adam Road Hawker then we went for Island Cremary. The cookies and cream is so much nicer than BnJ's. Haenz had Tiger Sorbet, quite nice too. Saw Bel's friend there but I think he don't recognise me. And I didn't see Ben.
Brother came to fetch me home. Thank god if not I'll be still on my way home I guess.
Felt happier at the end of the day.
Goodnight. Yay! Gonna meet up with Joel this friday with Sheena and KT and maybe Jacen. Major catch up session dude.
Ok. Got to turn in early tonight.
because you were there.
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It's just not my day yesterday.
- Talents pangseh.
So I looked for talents for the damn whole day. Even during DSC meeting but they told me to look for talents myself.
- Took wrong bus, ended at Clifford Pier.
I was close to tear. I'm scared of unfamiliar places.
- Waited damn long for bus 97 and I was very urgent.
I never tell Cherine and Jacen how happy when I finally saw them.
- Bubble tea cup slip and fall without even drinking it.
And the drink flowed to the front of this muslim food stall and that lady is damn not nice. She kept staring and was very pissed.
- I think Jacen spread his fever to me.
I think cus he sat next to me during meeting. All his germs.
- Received the news about Jeremy goh.
No i don't know him personally but I definitely saw him at family dinner before.
So yah. What a wonderful day. And after I came back from meeting, I still have to do up the shirts ordering and D'Olympics. The shirts are giving me a headache and almost 3/4 of the AY is gone and the subcoms shirts are not even here. Damn chwee. Damn slow. Damn sian. Stupid Fiona. Lousy Sub com head. Jacen is sick, I don't want him to over tire himself anymore so I did some write up for him.
And then I continued looking for talents. Till now, which is like 2.41am. Searched everyone in my friendster list since that's how Jacky found his talent (from my friendster list). But none reply my messages on friendster. Rex never reply. Hua never get back to me. Budget over limit. Cannot find volunteers.
I don't even have the time to reply Voon's email. I hope she'll reach back to Singapore safe and sound. I love you, Ugly.
Emotional turmoil. Emotions roller coaster. Very emo. I damn tired. I need to sleep....
p/s i love you too, sheena chiang
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
- Talents pangseh.
So I looked for talents for the damn whole day. Even during DSC meeting but they told me to look for talents myself.
- Took wrong bus, ended at Clifford Pier.
I was close to tear. I'm scared of unfamiliar places.
- Waited damn long for bus 97 and I was very urgent.
I never tell Cherine and Jacen how happy when I finally saw them.
- Bubble tea cup slip and fall without even drinking it.
And the drink flowed to the front of this muslim food stall and that lady is damn not nice. She kept staring and was very pissed.
- I think Jacen spread his fever to me.
I think cus he sat next to me during meeting. All his germs.
- Received the news about Jeremy goh.
No i don't know him personally but I definitely saw him at family dinner before.
So yah. What a wonderful day. And after I came back from meeting, I still have to do up the shirts ordering and D'Olympics. The shirts are giving me a headache and almost 3/4 of the AY is gone and the subcoms shirts are not even here. Damn chwee. Damn slow. Damn sian. Stupid Fiona. Lousy Sub com head. Jacen is sick, I don't want him to over tire himself anymore so I did some write up for him.
And then I continued looking for talents. Till now, which is like 2.41am. Searched everyone in my friendster list since that's how Jacky found his talent (from my friendster list). But none reply my messages on friendster. Rex never reply. Hua never get back to me. Budget over limit. Cannot find volunteers.
I don't even have the time to reply Voon's email. I hope she'll reach back to Singapore safe and sound. I love you, Ugly.
Emotional turmoil. Emotions roller coaster. Very emo. I damn tired. I need to sleep....
p/s i love you too, sheena chiang
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
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Life is so unpredictable. RIP Jeremy Goh.
you're my source of comfort.
you're my source of comfort.
(Nov 26, 2007)
i'm very sleepy. i've to wake up at 7.45am later and reach town by 9.30am. and it's 2.33am now and i'm really hungry. or is it gastric?
lim jian gave me 4 blows in a day and haenz calls me a cheena lian and donson calls me a kopi soh. i don't know whats so addictive about facebook. i spent half an hour ignoring the applications but i only ignored half of those. eventually i gave up.
ho hum fo fum.
jacen tried to flirt with me today.
and so did mark.
LOL.
and MLoo smsed just now. but by the time i saw his sms, it was already lights off for him. sian. havent talk to him properly for a hell long time.
i miss your stupid late night webcam convos. =))
ok. shall go sleep alr. nights
lim jian gave me 4 blows in a day and haenz calls me a cheena lian and donson calls me a kopi soh. i don't know whats so addictive about facebook. i spent half an hour ignoring the applications but i only ignored half of those. eventually i gave up.
ho hum fo fum.
jacen tried to flirt with me today.
and so did mark.
LOL.
and MLoo smsed just now. but by the time i saw his sms, it was already lights off for him. sian. havent talk to him properly for a hell long time.
i miss your stupid late night webcam convos. =))
ok. shall go sleep alr. nights
(Nov 25, 2007)
i want you for this christmas.
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yes. i am tired, very. i am tired from everything and everyone.
i don't like to tell my problems to people im not very close with (i just rant).
i'm sorry that i even flare up at people close to me (not exactly close but close enough).
i feel pretty bad at those sudden outburst of anger.
i still feel the drift in everyone. and i'm like not here, not there.
emo period.
i think work is the culprit but "you can blame everyone else except yourself".
still, i'm very tired.
Sheeeena. home crashing and ultimate slacking session soon please.
I shall go back to my work and listen to westlife's ballads.
i don't like to tell my problems to people im not very close with (i just rant).
i'm sorry that i even flare up at people close to me (not exactly close but close enough).
i feel pretty bad at those sudden outburst of anger.
i still feel the drift in everyone. and i'm like not here, not there.
emo period.
i think work is the culprit but "you can blame everyone else except yourself".
still, i'm very tired.
Sheeeena. home crashing and ultimate slacking session soon please.
I shall go back to my work and listen to westlife's ballads.
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i should just go mia one day and be an irresponsible friend for leaving everything behind.
if i cant beat them, then i should join them.
planning a celebration is not difficult but all i wanted was just suggestions here and there and some help? but all i got back was "i duno leh", "i think then i call you back" and "i let you know later". But all the time, i dont get back a reply. i dont know if making a call is so difficult or is it that my phone number is too complicated? now i understand why everyone is drifting away from everyone and why people is leaving to join other friends rather than this group of friends.
i've got lots to say but i dont know where should i start from or how should i start it. like what josh said, I tried too hard to be sociable and easy going. people's true colors always surface after a while and i think it's my time now.
is it just me?
i shall take this hols to break away from everyone so that i wont get so emo all the time like how im feeling now. if im not going to sleep now, im going to break down soon. so goodnight.
if i cant beat them, then i should join them.
planning a celebration is not difficult but all i wanted was just suggestions here and there and some help? but all i got back was "i duno leh", "i think then i call you back" and "i let you know later". But all the time, i dont get back a reply. i dont know if making a call is so difficult or is it that my phone number is too complicated? now i understand why everyone is drifting away from everyone and why people is leaving to join other friends rather than this group of friends.
i've got lots to say but i dont know where should i start from or how should i start it. like what josh said, I tried too hard to be sociable and easy going. people's true colors always surface after a while and i think it's my time now.
is it just me?
i shall take this hols to break away from everyone so that i wont get so emo all the time like how im feeling now. if im not going to sleep now, im going to break down soon. so goodnight.
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Sunday 12.30am
Had family dinner at East Coast Jumbo earlier on. I only woke up at 7 in the evening. Granny came this morning. So tonight I'm sleeping with my parents. Hurs.
Dinner was alright. Full to the brim as usual please.
Sian Monday to Wednesday must wake up damn early.
Monday got invigilator briefing in the morning, cleaning up lounge in the afternoon and DSC meeting in the evening.
Tuesday got Red Star breakfast in the morning and DEFA meeting in the afternoon.
Wednesday got DEFA meeting in the afternoon, help Huizhen's group for filming and meet Gail take money.
WHA LAO SIAN. HOLIDAYS LEH.
BURN BURN BURN
Better than nth to do actually. I need A LOT of sleep yo.
I'm feeling much better today.
Thinking of you alone makes me happy.
Had family dinner at East Coast Jumbo earlier on. I only woke up at 7 in the evening. Granny came this morning. So tonight I'm sleeping with my parents. Hurs.
Dinner was alright. Full to the brim as usual please.
Sian Monday to Wednesday must wake up damn early.
Monday got invigilator briefing in the morning, cleaning up lounge in the afternoon and DSC meeting in the evening.
Tuesday got Red Star breakfast in the morning and DEFA meeting in the afternoon.
Wednesday got DEFA meeting in the afternoon, help Huizhen's group for filming and meet Gail take money.
WHA LAO SIAN. HOLIDAYS LEH.
BURN BURN BURN
Better than nth to do actually. I need A LOT of sleep yo.
I'm feeling much better today.
Thinking of you alone makes me happy.
(Nov 24, 2007)
I'm not that Fiona anymore.
I'm fighting hard to bring back the smile.
And apparently you're the only one who is able to do it.
Emotions are getting out of hands. I swear I thought I saw Jo just now. I guess it was hallucination. I think all the stress from DEFA and D'Olympics are making everything worse than before. The hallucination is back to haunt me.
HI JOSEPH. I LOVE YOU STILL.
Thinking of Jo reminds me of Mian and those who suffered the same fate as me. People thought people like us who lost our close friends are crazy because we still talk to them as though they are still alive.
"You are alive as long as you're being love by someone"
Yeah. Josh told me that and it's difficult to get that out of my mind.
Yes. The driver and that rich kid has been missed again.
I miss you, subaru impreza
My back is aching for sitting up for too long.
Anyway, Dou Jiang You Tiao and durians at Geylang were love. I was afraid that the durian might slip and fly off and stuck on my face though.
I have been flaring up at people who I'm not very much close with these days. If they would keep their 2 cents worth of comments to themselves sometimes and prolly not irritate me with their choice of words or actions, then it would have been so much easier for myself.
Thanks for standing by me to make sure i'm alright
Little action makes a bigger impact.
Jacen told Cherine that I am his first friend in poly. Thats makes my day better. At least I made an impact on someone's life. Right Buddy.
I hope some sleep would clear all these worries off my mind for me.
So, Bye world.
Just make me smile more, would you?
I'm fighting hard to bring back the smile.
And apparently you're the only one who is able to do it.
Emotions are getting out of hands. I swear I thought I saw Jo just now. I guess it was hallucination. I think all the stress from DEFA and D'Olympics are making everything worse than before. The hallucination is back to haunt me.
HI JOSEPH. I LOVE YOU STILL.
Thinking of Jo reminds me of Mian and those who suffered the same fate as me. People thought people like us who lost our close friends are crazy because we still talk to them as though they are still alive.
"You are alive as long as you're being love by someone"
Yeah. Josh told me that and it's difficult to get that out of my mind.
Yes. The driver and that rich kid has been missed again.
I miss you, subaru impreza
My back is aching for sitting up for too long.
Anyway, Dou Jiang You Tiao and durians at Geylang were love. I was afraid that the durian might slip and fly off and stuck on my face though.
I have been flaring up at people who I'm not very much close with these days. If they would keep their 2 cents worth of comments to themselves sometimes and prolly not irritate me with their choice of words or actions, then it would have been so much easier for myself.
Thanks for standing by me to make sure i'm alright
Little action makes a bigger impact.
Jacen told Cherine that I am his first friend in poly. Thats makes my day better. At least I made an impact on someone's life. Right Buddy.
I hope some sleep would clear all these worries off my mind for me.
So, Bye world.
Just make me smile more, would you?
(Nov 23, 2007)
It's 4.36am and I am half awake. Since my hair is not dry yet, I shall blog.
So earlier on today, met up with Sheena and KT at CP. Been like months since I last stepped into that shopping mall which we used to patronize every other day after school. Had lunch before we had our chilling session at Starbucks.
We were discussing whether Russell was/is stalking Sheena and TA-DA. He appeared out of nowhere and Sheena offered him to join us and yes, he did. So they lovey-dovey there. I think they makes a cute couple.
So he left and it rained. Then I sort of flared up because they drew on my new notebook. Boo Fiona Boo.
I think we're all growing old. We used to slack there from noon till last bus but today, we all "buay tong" sia. Not good. OLD LIAO SIAN.
(Sheena is ranting to me on msn now)
Quite happy though. Like FINALLY got to spend some chilling/no worries time with Sheena. Being damn long since we sat down to chat like that. Then I called Buddy and we chatted for like 5 mins. Like some dirty/horny talk. Then I called Jacen and flirt with him and then told him some stuff about yishun. Then called Joel. That guy big shot now sia. Controlling all the ITEs wireless network. Yay! Gonna meet up with him next Friday.
(Sheena stop ranting as she is going to sleep alr)
And after coming home, Brother and parents were discussing about bring Stalion and Axel back from Bangkok. Brother is coming back for good and going to sell off his Bangkok house. Sian. Next time go must stay hotel liao. So ya, we called Erjie who is still in Saudi and will only be back after CNY. Can't wait for her to come back for good. Brother and I decided on which furnitures to throw/sell, what to buy and what to move about. Apparently if the two boxers come, we will have like 3 dogs altogether excluding Toughie who is in Saudi with Erjie.
And thus, we will need A LOT of spaces for the dog to at least walk about.
In case you don't know what the hell a Boxer is or how big it is,
Yes. Imagine this in my house. I think by the 2nd week after they arrived, the stairs in my place will break. Their tail works like a whip.
BUT I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO ARRIVE LAR SIA.
They shall kill the cockroach for me.
They shall accompany me for my run.
They shall run to me when I reached home and jump on me.
They shall be my leg rest.
But. THEY SHALL NOT JUMP ON BABY AND SMASH HIS TINY BRAIN.
Damn excited.
Sheena claim that they are very handsome. Yes they are.
That reminds me of the test that Sheena gave me and KT. Damn funny. KT will have a muscular girlfriend. LOL.
Ok. It's 5 already and I have to help out with Huizhen's group's production later on at 12. Then Cherine, Jacen, Donson, Haenz, Angel and whoever else (and I) are going for YouTiao and Durian for supper!!!!! YAYNESS PLEASE. D-U-R-A-I-N-S LEHHH.
And the next time I see Sheena would be Friday. And hopefully we'll be crashing each other's place to "zo bo". Ultimate slacking please. Wha. I think without Sheena I will die sia. No one to hardcore gossip with sia(other than Jacen). When I say hardcore, I meant HARDCORE. I think other than Sheena, he's the next who I can gossip with non stop for hours.
Cherine say I can borrow Jacen later on in the afternoon. So I told Jacen we shall have sex in at the sports complex's toilet later on. I think I am ranting non stop. Another random post. Pointless la. I am like talking to myself.
Damn shiok. Buddy they all must be grinding some girls at MOS just now. Stupid army boy.
Speaking of army, I got a little emo at Starbucks just now. Was like thinking of like MLoo. Exchanged like 2 smses and he went to sleep. He's in camp so cannot meet up and so, no Subaru to send me home this time round. I think I miss his Subaru more than him. And his oldies songs.
Ok. I think I ought to sleep now since it's 10 mins pass the last time check. But I just felt like typing because I like the sound of the keyboard.
Nevermind. Part two of audio room cam whore:
Somebody told John that "FIONA and her friends (brought the table in)" and so John smsed me and asked me to get it out. But I did not attend school. LOL. Nick told me when he went over, it was already out. And I got B for assignment 2. I think I'll get a C for Assignment 3. Sian.
Ok. SLEEP FIONA SLEEP. TOMORROW MUST WAKE UP EARLY FIONA. SLEEEEEP.
Somebody told John that "FIONA and her friends (brought the table in)" and so John smsed me and asked me to get it out. But I did not attend school. LOL. Nick told me when he went over, it was already out. And I got B for assignment 2. I think I'll get a C for Assignment 3. Sian.
Ok. SLEEP FIONA SLEEP. TOMORROW MUST WAKE UP EARLY FIONA. SLEEEEEP.