Missed school today. Totally overslept. Woke up only when Sotong called at 12+. Bahhs. he asked me to go eat with them but I was at home. LOL. Called Mark and asked what was class about today. Think I missed out alot in class today. Bahhs. Am waiting for Joshua Tan to come online so that I can tell him about my part for the project. Die. p1 die p1 die p1 die. Jacen was so sweet. He bought me some mushroomy thingy but I ain't in school today to get it. Thanks dude. Pong passed me some stuffs she bought for me yesterday too. Hmm. I felt so bad receiving gifts here and there all the time.

And this Sunday I gonna get a group to myself for the Orientation training. Shai informed that they are older than me and asked me to be prepared. OK. It'll be a challenge to me then. Bahhhs. I don't think I'm up to standard for it though. I can't disappoint them and myself.

I die to be a good instructor like them.

Finally I found what I really love.

Lecturer Ben did not send out email regarding there was no class yesterday thus, we went down only to find out that there was no class. But I shall forgive him. You'll know why later. =))

So anyway, headed down to Ikea for their mouth slavory meatballs. I nearly puked for eating too many of the same taste. Cheryl said I should mix it with the sauce but it was too cheesy. Bleah. Meatball kills. =((

Met up with Chiang and walk one round around TM before going back to my place. She had her lunch and cups of vodka while I just lazed around my bed. I was so damn sleepy la. So anyway we chatted and waited for the rain to stop before heading over to her place. So we slacked once again over there before moving our butts out of her house down to town.

Met up with Voon at NYNY and we had our dinner there. It was a short catch up session and I guess all 3 of us were extremly tired. We made friend with their Asst Supervisor, A.J, handsome leh. LOL. We then headed off to Esplanade, Theater by the Bay to chill out. We sat there, listened to some band singing and just relax. It was nice.

Ghost in my room? Hmm.

NYNY rocks!











Though it was short, it was enjoyable esp with it's spent with my besties.

Learnt something new from Voon. I must be firm. F-I-R-M! with my decision. Human can only tolerate this much. Once you step over the line, it's over. It reached my limit.

As the chinese say, "CAI DAO WO WEI BA" (step on my tail)

Anyway,

As for today, went to school in the early morning. Had a sip of coffee from Nina. I realised she drinks coffee almost everyday. LOL.

And today, I finally know who is Lect Ben Ong. Handsome chap. A mixture of Jon Leong, Alvin Neo and he talks like Sotong! LOL. Rather amusing I would say. So anyway, we had lunch with some of the Pham, Carmen, Mark and Huizhen. As usual I don't know why, if it's in my attendance or Shahul, that they always talk about sex or penis or thing related to it. LOL. We laughed our ass off. Thanks Yumi. You made me laughed again.

Slacked in the studio before they go back for class. Being eons since we sat and chat like that in the studio. I think it has being a few blocks since.

Bus-ed home with Nic. Bleah. He made me waited for more than 15mins for my bus 69! LOL. not his fault actually. =))

Slept like a piece of log and and and, only to be woken up by Jacen for two times regarding the camp stuff. Bahh. I'm quite worried. Hmmmmmm.

Read about something. I think I missed a chance. Sorry Fiona. Sorry to myself.

Shai still hasn't call me yet. Called him at 6+, he was in a meeting. Die sia. I scaredLOVE camp. (I'm scared because of the problems that gonna be surfaced. I'm scared I can't do a better than job than my last camp. But, I know and hope I can do it!)

Massive photo entry. Muahahas.



Chu Xi: Played sparkles with my niece then had reunion dinner before meeting SK to Chinatown. Met up with the usuals then down to Simpang Bedok.

That's all for CNY.

It's so weird, damn weird that I'm thinking of M.

Am I missing him? I guess so.

But why would I do? I don't know.

Who am I to him? Someone he would contact and date out when he's lonely?

Ok fiona, time for some rest.

I don't know is it abit too late to talk about her leaving. But I chanced upon these videos and they really made all those tears that I've being controlling rolled down freely. I've been controlling my tears for a long long time and finally today, I let them all out.











Thank you to my dearest few who showed me with utmost sincerity in our friendship and caring, concerning and also trusting and believing in me.

Boos. Sick during CNY is so not cool. Rashes, fever and sorethroat. Cherissa claimed that my forehead can cook egg.

This CNY made me realised alot of things about human nature. This 2007 marks the 10th years of friendship wtth Buddy CH and 8th years of friendship with Brother Jisheng. And also, this year I found out that we can't judge a book by it's cover. I always thought Lishi aka Kervonne is those ahlian bo chap kind of girl but what happened last night proved me wrong. Thanks for concerning.

I'm still traumatised by that few incidents. It's traumatising how human nature can be so scary ain't it?

the-12-letters-word-starting-with-a-D is the only word to descibe how i feel about human nature.

I sincerely thanks the few who appeared at the right time. People who i know for as long as 7 years to as short as less that 10 meetings.

A note to Cherissa: Get over it girl. The more you probe, the more hard it is for you to forget her. Just switch it off COMPLETELY.

And, A BIG THANKS TO JOSH for attempting to kill me on my bed using my pillow. Thanks for everything once again. Lovesssss.

Jisheng's on the plane towards India for his field training alr. Good luck man. Woos.

Super super shag. After reunion dinner the other day, met up with Lovelyn and headed off to chinatown. Saw fireworks and squeezed thru the crowds. Went over to Bugis, met up with Buddy, Bernard, Jisheng, Lishi, Arthur, Zhenwei, LPL, Jasper and De xuan. Went to pray and slacked around before going simpang for supper. Then played Blackjack. No win no lose. headed home at around 7am.

Then yesterday, slept till evening then went to visit my eldest uncle then met up went over to Bernard's. Blackjack again. From 11pm - 6.30am. Damn shag. Staying out for 2 nights str8 is crazy and mummy is not happy. LOL. I think all in all there were around 20 people. And Lishi lost the angpow that Ber's mum gave. I hope that person would be cursed with bad luck for the whole year. Even an ang pow also wanna steal.

Today, went over to 2nd Uncle's place. Had fun with my 2 lil cousins. But, I fall asleep over there. Bleah.

Was suppose to meet the usual guys but mummy's not happy and I'm tired and they prefer the old place so I'm at home today. It's a pretty unusual scene to see me at home and not down there playing Blackjack with the guys ok? But Arthur sounded really angry over the phone just now. Sorry.

Feel so bored now. Thinking of them playing and BANLAK-ing down there but I'm here at home facing the computer and watching tv and at this same time listen to the mahjiong sound contributed by my parents and sisters. Bahhs. BORING.

Gonna meet up with some of my Ladies tmr for K. Jisheng's off to India for NS this Thurs. Take care bro.

Pics up after CNY. Lazy transfer. LOL.

Being busy for the past 2 days. Spring cleaning. Had dinner with the usual khakis last night then I went home first. Went around with family to buy new year stuffs.

Tomorrow's CNY. New clothes, big angpow, food and gatherings. I love.

Damn tired. Finished packing my room. Waiting for Dad's call then go downstairs help them to take things up. Damn tired. My room is so spacious and smelling clean now. Dust free.

Last day of Jap CDS. Abit screwed up. 1 minute overtime. We watched some dvd then took class photos. Not really bonded with the class but must say that the class is a fun class to be. Got to know many nice people in TDS. Am glad that jap is FINALLY over.

Alright. Gonna rest for awhile. I'm aching all over.

Shai, Fiona, Yj, Jacen and Az by the S'pore River.

Bahh. I'm still memorising my lines for tmr's Jap presentation. In Jap ehs. Die die die. Strictly no cue cards.

Alif, Haris and Emily sure make good jokers. They made me laugh till i had cramp. Being eons since I had those type of laughters. I sure miss Yumi and the rest of the Pham.

Ok. What we did in class today was damn funny. We were rehearsing till we were damn tired and bored so Alif started saying this Superman returns joke and we started saying jokes after that.

Q: What do you call an Indian Electrician?
Q: What do you call an ocean filled with millions of Indians?

Abit racist but no offence kays.

And we had 2 turtles joke and an ancient joke. Damn funny. All 4 of us were laughing like crazy asses.

Bahhhs. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Enjoyed myself today doing the ITE Clementi event. Glenn said all of us improved alot.

The guys were better than we expected. This Hafiz guy who is the new president of student council was in my group. Damn on sia him. And he really listens to instructions and also influence his pals and is popular among them as well. I've learnt from him today though it was just a short period.

Good job guys! Total loves.

I'm still thinking should I skip school to be down for CVSS sec 3 camp this March anot because Shai really need alot manpower. I think I will though.

Fish and Chips at Clark Quay after that. Central Mall and followed by Singapore River with Azlina, Jacen, Yijie and Shai.

I think I need to thank 3 major people in Seal. Jason, Eddie and Shai. =))

Sprained my ankle today again and there's a blister. Damn.

Zonked out.
Goodnight.

I just love my dinner khakis so much. Cheryl, Nic, Fikry, Warren and Junwei. Junwei didn't join us though. We laughed so much till everyone turned and looked at us. Saw the Biz people there too. One whole group of them again. Mark Lim came and talked to me. Chey. I thought it was something serious but it was nothing. HAHA.

We left at 11.20pm.

Gonna go sleep and wake up by 5.45am. Gonna do an event at Safra Mount Faber. This time only Yijie and Jacen doing with me. I not sure about the rest of the other instructors and I dont even know what we gonna do there. Lucky I msg Shai about the event cus he lack of instructors. =))

Have to rush back to school by 5.15 for group meeting.

Now, my eyes are already closing.

Am chatting with Lovelyn and Sheena in msn. Miss that Bitch man.



Grrr. My skin is peeling. Damn ugly.

What can I say about the camp? Hmm. It was tiring, very. Sheena, Yijie, Jacen and I did not sleep for 3 whole days consectively. To me, it was the students who kept me awake.

With no mental preparation that the kids were only primary 5 and I gonna take a whole grop of them together with Jolene.

The school was late for the first day and we have to rush through the programme. It was really time packed and almost every other station went haywired. I was lucky to be in tag with Brian's group. But we screwed up the rafting part and Fahmy have to rush over to save us. Haha. Canoe was ok but the guys were out of control man. Seriously. 41 of them to handle. Some girls were freaked out and cried. Some kept complaining about their wet shoes. Almost every other second, one person will ask "can we take off our shoes?". Irritating, yes, but at least they didn't take out.

Night walk was the best. The students love it man. But once again, they cannot stop telling me how much they think that it's not scary. But I heard guys screaming and some girls were chating "Sorry, we are just walk pass. Don't scare me."

First day night was the worst. Everyone don't want to sleep. Brandon and I have to shout and shout and shout. Asking them to sleep, go back to their tents ect. But my section were good. they slept all the way without giving me headache.

Our debrief for the first day was long. Learned some handling of kids tactic from Glenn and Eddie.

Everything went smoothly and improved on the 2nd day. I got 90% of the control of my kids but I was really disappointed in them during the low elements part. My leader was shouting at people, asking everyone to listen to her. The guys were not listening to me. No teamwork, no groupwork. During debrief, I asked to reflect upon it and I said "I don't want a leader who can lead but don't lead". I guess I hurt Nurul with my words. After the low elements, I got her out and talked to her. And she improved on herself after that. I was damn happy and pleased. High elements, the group were participative. Hui En who was scared of height went up towards the end of the programme. And, my favourite Arthur from Brian's and Brandon's group went up after I talked to him and I was so proud of him. He was crying and crying piror to that saying he do not want to go up.

Our section campers did their Campfire performance all by themselves. We gave them little help. Only here and there we gave them suggestions. Campfire was great but the campers were so tired after waiting for so long. They practically lost all their rara-ness. But still they did a god job for the performance.

Not to say, my section, Blackmore, won the champion house this year!

I didn't know that I would feel the attachement with the campers. Towards the end of the whole camp, some of them cried. I see the kids and I nearly cry. Shai came over and congrat us and he said "Haha. I know you're going to cry Fiona. Congrats" (he congrat cus we won the best house) and that triggered my tear duct.

My darling Arthur cried on his way back to school. Aww. Now, I feel the impact of the instructors. Maybe 10 years down the road they would still remember us. I still remember my P5 instructors ok. =))

9 of us followed the kids back and we have lunch over at LauPatSat. And I cabbed back home with Yumi and Fahmy. And I just woke up from a 15hours concussion. Haha.

Really thank god that I was in section D together with Brandon, John, Jolene, Brian and under Jason. Jason's really a good leader. He was strict but the kids LOVE him. I can picture him as the future Eddie.

I'm proud of Yumi and Sheena as well. Yumi, amusingly, held her anger and frustration towards the kids. Her group is the worst thing you would want to handle on Earth man. Sheena, she crossed over her limits and made friends with the campers. She handled on group herself too! Claps to the girls man!

Before I go for camp, I would like to wish all the Olvl's taker last year a BIG GOOD LUCK for the results day this Friday.

"I wanna be your favourite Hello and hardest Goodbye"

Cheryl threw me a difficult question. I mean, I also don't know the answer myself. Hmm. But, I think so bah. =))


I always thought all the Arians are the same with the same traits but I was wrong. The other Arians like Yijie, Ain and Daniel Goh proved me wrong. But I guess Junwei and I kinda act alike uh? Hmm. Apparently I found someone who acts exactly like me; stubborn and act without thinking and paraniod. Hmm. Guess yourself lo.

Gahh. I think there're more people who are Arians around me. I need to go study on them already. Haha.

Gonna skip lesson tomorrow but there's a group meeting at 3 with Emily, Haris and Alif.

Guess what!? I f**king shivered during presentation today. Like damn it man. I was asking all the people before me to relax then I bloody shivered. My practiced time for my presentation was 4 mins but my final timing was 3:20mins. Damn. I think I sorta rushed through it. But ok la. I maintained eye-contact so not that bad.

Die. I need more ComDI man.

Die. I need to study for my culture test on thurs. 5 topics to study.

Die. I'm so tired and I need to sleep.

Die. I want to watch tv.

Die. Die. Die. Die.

I'm extremely tired.

The camp training today was energy draining. I did not enter the water at all. Quite wasted. Ice breaker was fine. Thank god Jacen was in the same group with me. In my group were Jolene, Azliza and Brandon. 4 CVSS people in a group. And I got alot mosqitoes bite as well.

So I'll be away from Wednesday night all the way to Saturday. Woos. Shiokness. But still have to rushed back to school on thursday to take my Jap Cultural Test. I cannot fail this module man. If not my gpa can go to hell already.

Bought my trekking slips today. Whoo.

New waterbottle too. LOL.

Sian. Wednesday must bring super heavy bag to school. Clothings that can last me for 4 days.

First and foremost,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHAN JIAN HUA (JACEN)!

The plan to surprise him went well.

Anyway, met up with Yumi, Mark and Yijie to buy his presents at TM then headed over to Pasir Ris and met up with Shahul and Sotong. We went over Downtown and waited for Cheryl, Nick and Warren. While waiting for them, we rescued a tortise in the koi pond. It's skin all turned white la. KNN. I already failed to save one in the past so I cannot afford to miss this. All thanks to them especially Sotong and Shahul. Dajie came and brought it home. Still thinking of it's name.

Anyway, after the late kings and queen reached, we ganged up with Rendy and Laura. Laura brought Jacen out of chalet and Rendy hid us in the room. So the 9 of us waited for him in the dark room. The guys were waiting for him by the door with the blanket in their hands and,,,, they bloody whacked him after he came in (he got night blindness and he can't see anything that's in the room). Shahul, without fail, aimed his nipple again. HAHA.

And guess what? Jacen cried. He was so touched la. We kept disturbing him. AWWW. Presented him with the presents. So, all in all, we bought 2 skull shirts, 1 hoody, 1 death note pillow, 1 skull pink hair pin, cake, some bikini looked like thingy and a packet of L-O-V-E which consists of condoms, vibrating ring and lubricating gel. Yumi and I bought condom for KT as well.

We then slacked around for photo taking and the guys raped him again. Shahul and Yumi went back first. Had 2 chicken wings and we sat around playing guessing games and saying retarded jokes like Sotong's famous POLAR BEAR joke (it was in Block 1 when that joke made us laughed like hell in the COMDI room). Had red wine and abit of vodka without mixing it with anything. THANKS HUH. Bluffed me it's sprite.

Then we Yum seng-ed and Jacen made his speech. Stupid Rendy alot stupid tricks la. And we made Jacen do some *censored* stuffs. Go rack your brains and think what we did. HAHA.

Then they water bombed him but everyone else kenna. I think only Warren, Cheryl, Sotong and I left unhurt. HAHA. Funny la.

Didn't meet up with the guys in the end. Kinda disappointed. Sighs.

Hope Yijie would get over the _ soon. Cheer up chicken lil.

Jacen just smsed me said he love the presents alot.

On a sidenote, Yumi gave me 2 new members of the Mushroom family. LOVES.




Bottom (Mark, Nick, Jacen, Shahul, Yijie, Me)
Top (Warren, Yumi, Sotong, Cheryl)












Jacen got raped.




Yumi said he got Horny Face.




The tortise we saved today. Yumi named him Hero.



Hero, TorTor and Titi.
I'm seperating them first incase anything happen overnight.




New member to the Mushy Family from Yumi.




Another one. Guess it's name?

























Yay. Mister Mush.

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji