Chao neh neh. They laughed at me after knowing how I sprained my leg. WHALAOS.
SOME FRIENDS THEY ARE!

okies. i was so tried last night that when i walked up the stairs, i thought i was invincible, i close my eyes and walked up and guess what? i miss a step and sprained my ankle.

and and and.
i had to postpone my Bball again as the courts have being fully book for some SAA projects.
sry for the inconvicence caused guys.

Design school today is like a ghost town. walking zombies all around. LOL.


awww. see how cute jacen is? haha. he POO POO me!



this is what designers do in school. there's alot more people who dressed up. =))

Ivan just said i'm retarded AGAIN. I hope he fails his NAFA unless he strip for me tmr. YEA
Captain's ball tmr. pray that nothing goes wrong.

2:17AM.
just finished doing some stuff for the D'Olympics like drawing out the table and so on.
thanks perlin and ben again for their help.
and my Dad as well.
woos.
tiring.

life is full of contridictions. =))

So I sprained my leg today.
Played captain's ball and watched abit of rugby and Vball.
TP has win the war! yeah.
TP guys damn violent sia. Haha.
Wonder SP girls or NP girls won.
Didnt watch TP girls' match though.

Jacen called and off froggy, her cousin and i to tm to meet them. met sotong, demp and shafiq on the bus as well.
had LJS. Shafiq is so damn fking disgusting. he drank those cocky stuffs which made him feel like vommiting. but, he's hot man! haha.
we went to hunt for Canon Manual D-Cam after that. not cheap sia.
okies.
then i went off first cus i wanna shit. haha.

alright. happy halloween!

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

anyway, after Josh screwed me up the other day, i decided to fk care about certain stuffs.
it's totally pointless to care about such stuffs. like so dumb.
i shall just let him continue verbal attacking me and continue to tell people how my words hurts him.
i'm sorry i don't know how to act pitiful.

I came to realised that in Poly, you need to have strong connections with people. Not just people in your own school but also people from the other schools in the Poly itself. Esp when you're in a Club which organises actitivities and taking care of the welfare of your fellow school mates.

For me, this first activity organise by me, D'Olympics wasn't a blast and I tasted the bitter of being an organiser. From planning the games and dates to getting referees to getting people to join to feeling lousy and all to help and concern from other people.

Before the games even start, i would like to thank a few people.

DSC Advisor
Vaani and Gail - helped me to book the equipments and courts and helping me to publicise it.

Main Com
Abby - looked for NAVI (Ivan) to help me to be the referee for street soccer as i really can't find any (ok. i can find a few but i don't wanna approach them =x ).
Yumi - helped me to find street soccer referee and help me out in parts of the planning.
Zul - helped me be the photographer and loaning the equipments and all.
PohHan - designed the poster for me (it's his job anyway. LOL)
Ben Gab - gaved me suggestion and helping me out with the table for street soccer.
Lois - for helping me with the forms and constantly volunteered to help me out if i need any help.
JunWei - for saying "i'll help you with it. don't worry"

Referees
Ivan - being my street soccer referee, looked for 2nd referee (i'll do the shirt for you in return =p)
Derrek - being my street soccer referee (i haven't really talk to him but i know who he is. LOL)

Perlin - being my Captain's Ball referee and looked fot Jacq as 2nd referee.
Jacq - being my Captain's ball referee.

Benny - Don't know this guy at all but thanks for being my bball referee and helping me to get other people for my Bball referee.
Deborah - dont know her at all as well. but was very helpful and all. thanks alot.
Minjie - being my standby referee. cool shit for the fact that he didn't think twice.

Individuals
Yumi - helped me out not only as a Main com member but as my les partner. comforting me and all those shit.
Jacen, Yijie, Warren - asking me hows everything and giving me suggestions. (it's those small gestures that counts)
Son, Mark - being my Officials for D'Olympics (it's their job as sub com anyway. =p lol)
Elroy - asked me not to be too stressed and listen to me rant (again, it's the little gesture thats counts. and the thing is i don't really know him)
Biz people - for asking me hows everything and whether i need help and giving me suggestions. (it's not their problem at all yet they still offered to help)
Ben Gab - listened to my complains.
Caleb - for bringing us to the trophy aunty but she never get back to me
Mr Thomas Yong - helped me get lobang for the trophies. those who want lobang, asked from me. their trophies, SUPER NICE AND CHEAP.
Delvin Law - helped me looked for another 3 guys to join Bball.
Jason Tan - his little words and occasion help comforted me. thanks bro.
Bernard - helping me out with the table for Street Soccer and giving suggestion and crapping with me on msn and asking me to treat him but in the end, he's going to treat me as in this 7 years he had never treat me anything before other than losing money to me during new year. ok la. i admit i think i lose to him more than he lose to me. LOL thanks bro.

i hope i didn't miss anyone out.

pardon me for tenses and spelling error. it's 4.28am now. i've got class at 12 later. fk*

Just came back from steamboat with family. Fking full now.

So I've decided to take up the CDI project alongside with Yumi, Eugene and Ariel. Not sure about the rest who Gail had sent the email to.

Jason's little words makes my day all the time.
Thanks bro.
Congrats to him in succeeding wooing Jacq after waiting for her for 6 mths.

Alright. Class tomorrow.
sigh.

this is one of the fluffy yumi bought for me to cheer me up during my grouchy period in school. she wrote the words during one of the DSC meeting. i think she want all the others to know we're together. LOL. okies. we're NOT together. haha. sounds les uh?

I miss those jackpot days.

Granny's here. Gonna accompany her for a day before school starts tomorrow.
Valentino did not reply my mail so i rekon there's gonna be class tomorrow.
I'm so not used to and so no happy that there's class on mon but what can i do?
and i'm so not happy with the Xerox print shop. They thought Design people print money one right? !@#$%^&*()_


"everything will be fine in the end. if it dosen't, it's not the end"

my wireless is pissing me off.
everytime i'm chatting with my friends, it'll disconnect. WTH. fed up man

thanks jacen and josh for what happened last night.

Played soccer, captain's ball and abit of bball today.
Now my legs are having blisters cus i ran barefooted for the whole day (5 hours) and they are swelling from all those RAM i got from the guys. But it was fun.

Watched abit of the POL-ITE championship for volleyball. Not bad not bad. Left after they started for like 10-15 mins. I hope NYP wins though.

Had dinner at TCCC with froggy and home-ed. I'm fucking tired.

-

was on the verge of crying today for a couple of times.
i just felt so lousy.
i can't be a organiser for fuck sake.
i need to be more stern with my decision and not get people to decide for me.
i was talking to one of the guy regarding the bball game over the phone and i cried after we hanged up.
i was feeling that lousy.

thanks to those who talked to me and all.
and those who helped me in any ways. thanks.

met son at Raffles Place at 1 and joined jacen and the rest of the fam over at clifford centre to bind our work.

had lunch with jacen, ain, aida and met up with teckchin since he was in school as well.

FINALLY! submitted my portfolio and assignments for Ideation 2. i was the last one to hand up on time. thanks to all those who helped me and get scolded from me. LOL.

crapped abit in studio before going home. i can finally get some peacefull sleep tonight!! awww. loves loves loves. i love sleeping!!

fuck la. junkai just called me say need to submit development for creative storytelling.
i never do any development. shit.

on a side note, i'm happy with my life now. even happier than i used to. with no relationship/friendship problems bothering me.
esp when i get to see my eyecandies once in a while.

I wanna join FOC/FOW for next AY
I wanna be GL and not be involved in the planning stage for next DOC.
I wanna get GPA 3 and above.
I wanna do CDI and get a chance to do OSIP.
I wanna D'Olympics to end as quickly as possible (next week)

--

OOOOHHHHHH-MMMMYYYYYY-GGGOOOOODDDD.

all thanks to elroy. he told me youtube got dharni's vid. my god. now im hooked to them.



he's good at it man!

Still doing my assignment. wasted alot of time in msn asking people to join the D'Olympics. seriously disappointed in myself as it's not going well.

thanks to elroy, hongwen, warren, junwei, son and jacen for forming another team for bball.

1 or two more teams are coming up for captain's ball and street soccer. please help to advertise people. even Ivan say 4 teams very little.

sigh.

im getting tired.

--

it's 4:55 am.
am chatting with jacen and yumi who are still rushing their work as well.
the mundane life of a designer.

it's 4:30am and im still infront of my com typing away for my Creative Storytelling.
im meeting the rest at 12 later for lunch! yes yes. after so long, finally, a LUNCH over the table for 11!! yes yes! fasting month is over meaning i can see Ain, Aidah, Shahul and Froggy slurpping away!

Thur's final submission. and after that? 3 days break and off to start off with my Typo module. FONTS! HERE I COME!

for now, i'm going back to my beloved Microsoft Word for more typing.

BYES

Holiday today.
Totally shag.
Slept at 6, woke up at 1:15.
Went out for the whole day.
Bought 2 tops.
Saw Changtat with Adrian.
I was like "wth" when i saw them together la.
How small can the world be?
Bahhs.

Has pasta for dinner.
Dig dig dig!
Saw a guy who looks like WuYanZu mix VJ Utt. Damn hot.

Totally love Beckham.

this was 05/06 orientation camp.
i cant stop laughing at this sia.
wonder who the guy is.
like nv see him in school before seh.
but, nice underwear over there.

I'm damn tired from doing my work.
I got no ideas at all.
It has completely sucked out my brain juice.
Thought that it would be some frigging simple cockie assignment but it's so like GRR la.
Damn COCK.
I've to borrow my niece's primary school textbook for reference but still it wasn't much of a help.
Came online to look for some visual reference and also to slack abit, awhile.
But fuck it.
I've got to go back to my paper and pencil and more thinking and drawing.
Can't wait for block 8 to arrive.

Seeing my fellow design friends looking exhuasted and all breaks my heart yet i'm feeling that way too. People still online at this time. 2:10am. Not to chat but to do research and submission. Photoshopping, getting rationale, doing reflection, think of a new layout, yadayada. I seriously have a problem with the system cus it's raping off my social life with my darlings. I simply love today. Everyone were there. From Ain to Sotong. Loves.

School has reopened for TP and im not used to seeing so many people in school after two months of seeing only design people in school.

But of course there's it's pros as well. =))


sighs. =((

fugly humans. including me.

somehow or rather, im missing him.
but im missing him too.
oh no. wait. i actually missing him.
but i don't think i've ever stop missing him.

hmm? eh?

hahas. whatever lo.

Sakinah finally contacted me today after being MIA for so long.
I hope nothing happens to her.

Caught up with Voonie today. totally love her to bits.

finally, i realised that after so long, i still hasn't gotten over.

Celebrated Daddy's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
Sadly, we cant get thru to my Erjie who apparently went missing. But still,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERJIE!
Hope she dosent miss PORK and LARD over at Saudi. LOL.

Had a chat earlier on with Josh. He was screwing me as usual.
Some people ask, why i don't post picture of him.
Is he that secretive? Ah hah. That, you have to ask him.
He got no friendster profile and uses mine to surf reason being; "Lazy to set up la".
But one thing for sure, he's not as handsome as Jo. LOL.

So, back to the topic.
He was asking "how's everything" and being lazy to type, i called him. i was yelling over the phone that i can't d/l photoshop and thus, i cant do my work. and fuck, i think his menses came and he yelled and scolded me like no one's biz. he must be one lucky chap that im scared of. he got super natural power. he can tame me! so, i sat dwn, stop whatever im doing and let him scold. and he scolded me for like whole 15 mins?! rant rant rant. say i petty, say i childish. but he ended off with "but, i still love you! WOOOOOS!" see, how can i not love him?

"fiona, learn. just keep learning. even it means losing something precious to you. you just gotto learn. life is always about learning."

i don't know why the hell he came up with this fucking learning theory la.

but i love him anyway.

LOVES!


I'm not the guy next door. says (3:58 AM):
I dare you.
I'm not the guy next door. says (3:58 AM):You better not post it up. Or else, it would be the end of our friendship BITCHO.
I'm Fiona. Call me Fifi: all just for the exchange of a smile. says (4:00 AM):
i've alr post it up!! yeah!!
I'm Fiona. Call me Fifi: all just for the exchange of a smile. says (4:00 AM):
and i know you'll still love me.
I'm not the guy next door. says (4:03AM):
Ya. Correct. I still love you. /pukes all over
I'm Fiona. Call me Fifi: all just for the exchange of a smile. says (4:04 AM):
i know i know. that's your way of showing your love for me. yeah! josh still love me!
I'm not the guy next door. says (4:04AM):
Of course. You're just a fortunate piece of shit to be loved by me.

and it's still going on.
aww. josh love me. i love josh.
hahahahahhaha.

alright. cockie cockery cocknut.
ciaos.

the monthly bleeding is here and my stomach hurts so much.
it hurts to the extend that i laid on the floor and roll around just now.
fuck you menses.

slacked in school.
initially wanted to go lib to do research but realised i can do my research online ah. wanted to go over to sports complex to do some work but lazy ah and the haze is like, GRR*
so, in the end, slacked over in the studio. did our group essay for creative storytelling. the guys went over to dota in the dota room so i stayed over in the studio looking after their stuffs.
off the studio's lights, on the music and chat in msn. the feeling is damn cool. i don't know how to describe ah. but i love the feeling of being alone for awhile listening to music and all. haha.

watched death note with son, jacen and froggy. coincidently, meimei and all were watching the show as well.
it's nice but anticipating it's sequal which will only be out in December. in the meantime, i shall just watch it's animae but it's only the 2nd episode. damn sians.

anyway, to annonymous, if you thought im referring to the-guy-whom-i-used-to-hang-out-with-often about the "i think he's still angry with me" part, im not.

there's no need to feel apologetic since you're angry with me as well.
your anger may be caused by my AP but ya, that's me. if you gonna say that you feel that it's bullshit again, go ahead cus it's the fact. im not hypocritical and i got no self control over my true feelings. and now, yes. this is referring to the-guy-whom-i-used-to-hang-out-with-often.

i don't find a need to blog out everything over here.

and when i thought this blog timetable is bad enough, i realised next block's even worse!!! there won't be an empty slot for us to chill and slacked and hang out with the "pham". fuck it. like totally. and there's 2 more assignment to the end of my idea 2. sians.

Hanged in 2d animation lab today for consultation but halfway Junkai and i were so tired from it, we just left.

Cabbed down to sengkang and met the peeps. did my work and see them study for science practical for tomorrow. GOOD LUCK PEEPS.

WOOS. I GOT MYSELF A 30GB IPOD VIDEO!!
FROM TODAY TILL SUN, IT'S MINE!!

hahahahahahhahahahahhas.


cool huh?! lols

went school, came home, slacked till now.
had the whole day to do my work but ya. i didn't touch it.
f it okies?

went for a jog earlier on. 2.4km plus climbing up the stairs to the 8th then back dwn to the 4th.
the feeling was nice. sweat dripping all over.

had a talk with shahul in the studio back in school today.
all he said was "fiona, this is life".
even so, that was quite a impactful reply.
i miss sitting in the studio with the rest of the "pham", singing and chatting. =))

he's still angry with me. i don't know why. hais.

haze's quite bad. take care peeps.

spent my day in school with the usuals.
did our Assignment 2.
glad that it was done finally.
tomorrow's presentation.
sian.
i don't have any concept for it.

millions apologies to the BSC people.
sorry for not making it to the dinner.

i think he's angry with me. =((
sorry.

haze's quite bad.
shot up to PSI 130 today.
take care people, drink more water.

eye irritation, sore throat, cough, yadayada.

josh went to see a doc after 3 days of fever.
like finally he's off to see a doc.
hope he get well soon.

nights people.

Vivo city is not as happening as everyone thought.
The shops are so boring.
Had Sushi Tei for dinner.

Woo. Bernard says he miss me and even changed his nick to "I MISS YOU"
(11:02 PM)
bo ho seh has changed his/her name to "I MISS YOU !"
he's going NS in dec 12 and ch's going in jan 12.
wha. how to live without them?!
damn sians.

Anyway, I can't save NewAgeGirl in my phone's memory card which i don't understand why. damn cock. damn sians.

WOO.
finally found my street soccer referees.
Ivan and Alex.
thanks abby!

thanks to yumi and hakim for helping to find andi who aparently went missing. haha

just woke up. fall asleep after talking with chiang.
the camp was fun. i must say. made alot new friends from the sub com though most of them are from my course but it's still nice making new friends.

Yumi's game (R21) turned out so well. The sub com must had alot fun. Seeing their faces filled with flour makes my day. I don't know which cock left his/her flour-ed handprint on my black tee. LOLS.

My nightwalk didn't turn out that well. The place was far too bright and oh well, it ain't that fun la. My ghosts all suffer with heatstroke la. LOLS.

Went for supper after that. the whole camp com. Maincom, Subcom, BSC helpers, BigBen, Renjie, Ariel and Jason. imagine the whole 40+ of us turned out at al-kader but there wasn't enough space so all of us were splitted to 3 venues. still had alot of fun.

That night was even worst. Most sub com were up the whole night. Went for a walk around school and we experienced something at the Odium. Scary. We went back and talked about ghost stories throughout the night for a couple of hours. Imagine how many stories we had? Haha. YiJie best la. He can publish a book already. Had my first screamed in the night and it led to alot more. Jason's timing was great. Scare the hell outta me. The 2nd time, he made me cry sia. I swear never to sit next to him if there's anymore such session man. Scary. So throughout the night we were scaring people. 2nd nightwalk at the corridors as well. Froggy. Stupid cock. Made the baby cryings. Gave me goosebumps just by thinking of it.

2nd morning was ALP. Hey sub com, yall did very very well in all the games. though I didn't see the 4th game but I sure you guys did a great job according to Jacen. Total proudness. Had lunch over at KFC and we were talking through talkie all the way. Like "jw, i saw you ald." then Tara went "hey. i saw you too" damn fun. After that was Abby's game. Fun. Son was so funny la. Made Yumi and I laughed like mad by his empire's skit.

And it was MASS DANCE!! everybody was sweating like hell la and all of us had so much fun. The BSC people were damn disturb. Kept disturbing during the dance. But I must say they are a fun bunch of people to hang out with. So it was NewAgeGirl and then Chicky Dance. Wawaweewa.

Debriefed and home.
and so, there's another meeting on thurs.
Submisson on tues, thurs, then fri and next tues and wed. Cool huh.
I'm thinking to quit DSC or not.
But surely 3 of us not running next year.

the camp was relatively fun and enjoyable expect that I got some stupid faces kept showing.

Millions thanks and appologies to the BSC people and the other helpers mentioned above.

Cheesepie. Don't take me for granted. Don't go too far. I treat you good, you? Took me for granted?

Okay.
it was an assumption.

why do people love making assumptions?

So in the end, I got only a C for my assignment one.
I should have worked more on it to make it perfect and instead of markers, i used use colourpencil or paint.
Ronald allowed me to improve on it if I got the time but he did not mentioned about upgrading my grades but still, I hope he'll.

Spent very little time in school today because there wasn't much people staying back. Everybody was tired after that "Harry Potter" show.

consultation tomorrow. but till now, i've not done a thing. shit.

meeting tomorrow.

i shall stop bitching about _. it's not good for health.

Reached home at past 12midnight.
Was in school from around noon to 9.30pm.
Yumi and Warren went back at around 6+ while KT joined Jacen, Froggy and I at around 7pm.
Helped him with his O's art which is due tomorrow.
I wasn't much of help la.
Was just there to disturb them.
Went over to void deck to continue at 9.30pm.
Hope KT would be able to finish it by 1 tomorrow.

SPT told me something the other day.
Initially I was quite pissed but it was partly my fault.
The friendship is not the same anymore.
I was kinda sad but what can I do?
I felt so helpless over this issue.

Damn sians.

1000 words essay: In Memories..

eugene is tall and cute
and really fun to poke.

ariel is short and pouty
he's addicted to coke

lois is pretty crazy
when it comes to work
she's really good in what she does
exactly like a nerd

fiona is a bubbly one
that engraves in people's heart
she's a special person
but her burp's as smelly as a fart

yumi has pinkish cheeks
and a little nodding head
she's as crazy as a rollercoaster
probably why she's mad

and what do they all have in common
as different as they seem
they all think _ stupid
stupid to the brim



family day today.
went out for branch then over to tampines mall, then to Paragon only to return to parkway in the evening.
both sis and i got ourselves new handphones.
samsung one. loves.
DSC meeting tomorrow is cancelled.
gonna spend time with yumi, froggy and jacen in school doing work for tuesday's submission.

PSI hit 150 today. Which is way too unhealthy for people to be at outdoors. Jacen was so sweet to send out smses to remind us to stay indoors. LOLS.

So my day was spent with my family. Tomorrow as well.

And fuck. When will they ever send out the CDS selection results? I wanna go Hongkong and ChingMai la! HONGKONG EHS!!! DAMN IT.

BAHHS. I somehow love icongraphy now. Dajie was a great help man. WOOS.




Sometimes, I hope/wish I could travel through time and be back to the times where we laugh so happily.

School is getting super slack now though alot submission on Tuesday.
2 movie reviews, one short essay and icongraphy.
Gonna start on my 1000words essay too.
Damn sians. Being so long since I last wrote a decent essay.

Watched John Tucker Must Die with Son, Yumi and Wilson.
The show is damn funny.

The haze is getting worse. It's damn smoky.
And the smell is like, whao.

DECEMBER? HOLIDAYS? CDS? SIANS! WHY DID I CHOOSE HTM?

I'm deprived and lack of sleep.

Went school at 11+ to use the cock lightboard and meet up with Jacen to get form from him. Then we slacked there till son came. Jacen went for his class and we went over to Biz Park to look for the rest. Went for a 5 mins consultation with Ronald and we're free again cuz, Sharon's class was cancelled. Damn cool. Woos. So son and I only went for class for 5 mins. LOLS. woohoos.

The whole 11 of us met up in the studio. Damn shiok. Shafiq was so funny. The moment he saw me, he shouted "FIFI!!!". Shahul commented now everyone are shouting. Miss the class man. Helped DSC stuffs for awhile and slacked in school for awhile.

While going home, there was this Jap exchange thing and they were dancing New Age Girl and Chicky Dance. I was so damn hyped up by New Age Girl, I started doing the OEI cheer. Luckily they were hyped up as well and Oei back and Oei us. Woos.

Yumi told me Ariel drew her avatar characters for her b'day pressie. DAMN SWEET LA!

Alright. My router's down but I'm using other people's wireless. WOOS.

First day of school. Damn slack sia.
But I foresee that workload gonna pail up real soon sia.

Sub comm recruitment is going good man. Hope tomorrow got more people!! =))

Cock. Went to school early in the afternoon wanting to sign out some stuffs from workshop but realised that it's close. Had lunch and did the "dice" that Junwei needed for his game. Went library after that. Saw Froggy there. So we spent don't know how many hours there freezing. Damn sian when we opened up our TP mail and realised that Sharon Ng emailed us saying there's no lesson on Monday. Good or bad? My wish did came true man! Hahas.

Anyhows. Then we went canteen to slack then 6pm started meeting. Damn shiok. Sub comm is going good but gonna start on my D'Olympics soon man and ShawnPaul's Camp Design.

Had dinner over at Ang Keong and walked home. I love the serenity of the night man! Yes ah!

Gonna start lesson tomorrow.

Sub comm recruitment starts tomorrow!

Mon's meeting we'll be learning the Design Mass Dance.
Thurs meeting would be a final meeting for all main comm and helpers.

Thanks to those who're willing to help us out. Thanks.

Everytime after reading Ade's blog, I'll have this uneasy, crestfallen and nostalgic feeling. Wonder why? must be her blog song plus the quotes and her emo posts. LOLS.

Slept at 5am this morning. Damn tired. Woke up at 11 and met up with Yumi and DanielGoh. Headed off to Expo to Dan's church.

Shan't elaborate but both Yumi and I had a hard time controlling our f**ks. And we have to talk so soft so as to not be bash up in there. LOLS.

Had some games and just as we were leaving, saw Guangrong and Kunrong then Miss Lim called me. Damn sian. See her again. LOLS. Just kidding. She was the only teacher who prayed for me during O levels. Once before my chi oral cus I was having gastric and another was before the start of the 1st paper. However, my gastric did not go away. LOLS. Bahhs.

Homed, slept. Shiok. No 12-3 lesson tomorrow. Shiok. Ronald on leave. YES AH! Meaning lesson only starts at 3. woos. Loves.

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji